Sunday, September 30, 2007

A theory passed down,

Human beings long for this sense of liberty yet through liberty you are enchained to the liberty to life.. in any ways, it is definite that you'll be chained to something or another.

To be free is to be alone. We delude ourselves from our loneliness with other things like hobbies and activities.


Exams are coming soon.. 20+ more days.. can't say i'm working very hard but i'm still working at it.. Hopefully it comes and it goes and I actually did my best.. I don't ask for much but let me get to a course that I want as minimum out of all the others.. It isn't hard it just takes effort. Can I do it?? >.> hopefully yes..

Been as restless as usual... Always thinking about getting some work done yet no work done.. Need to get some work done kay? Tomorrow will be having Maths Mock Exam which I conveniently forgotten. I soo wanna be like everyone else and skip school. I don't want to take no silly mock exam. What a waste of my energy....

How have I been??? Weird.. Immense darkness and evil emitting from me.. yet such innocent and lonely aura being emitted.. the contradictory of personalities.. Guess i'm just complicated thus making everything troublesome.. Anyways yea.. that's about that.. nothing much interesting recently... everything has been just about anime anime anime anime anime anime manga manga manga manga dota dota dota dota dota study study study study.. Robotic i should say..

Ciaos

Posted by wJ at 10:05 PM

Saturday, September 22, 2007

I find myself unable to socialise anymore? I have became so narrow again. The self-centered personality.. subconsciously the personality has revert to its original state just slightly modified.. I seems that in order to protect myself from further troubles and harm I locked my gates. but i don't know how to revert what was done. I face a situation where everything becomes Contradictory. I want to befriend someone yet i can't.. perhaps I am the troublesome one..

Was on the same bus as this classmate of mine this aftnoon. and before my friend left he actually said, "go talk to him, you might just be friends". and i gazed at him for a moment to notice that he was looking at me also.. both of us faced the opposite direction almost immediately when our eyes met. I can tell from his face and eyes that he was trying to communicate with me but maybe i'm wrong and that was what i was hoping for. I tried to say something like hi yet i couldn't do it. so there we were on the bus standing next to each other exchanging glances once a while in silence like idiots.

I don't know if u know of this blog, but if u do.. i got something i want to ask you. its a stupid question that you've answered before but I can't rmb what it was u said or did. stupid as it is yet it still exists. hope 2 be able 2 get in contact soon.. i realli want to solve this b4 i grad..

Posted by wJ at 10:00 PM

Tuesday, September 11, 2007

Hmm.. guess it's REALLY amazing that I actually passed my maths, they said the paper was altered to be easier thanks to our mid years. =p.. so can i really assure myself I will pass my O Levels?

I found out today, that i'm being a mooder again.. it means i'm on mood swings again, i can be crazy, happy and reflective and thats about that so far.. Pretty angry and ballistic once a while, THANKS to my """""""""""""""""""LOVING"""""""""""""""""" family.. don't know how much I can bottle this forever... Feeling stupid, wasted, alone, indecisive, uncertain, incompetent. I used to believe in building toward dreams, but I doubt what used to be will ever be. So it's like what people say, i either care to much or give to much a damn? or i just think to much. Now everything should be still and wells, don't really know whats next.

Pasts are pasts but pasts can move. Anyways tomorrow will be my Chinese Prelims. Gambate to myself.

Posted by wJ at 9:27 PM

Friday, September 7, 2007

Bye bye Holidays

Holidays are gone.. nothing much left other than Study.. My last few moments spamming playing games before I must put them all aside and reside in my books.. Well for one, I've been playing non-stop since Monday.. i just play play play play play.. and of cos i prac prac prac prac prac also.. can't say i'm getting any better, i'm probably even lost to hearing and stuffs.. hopefully not... After all i might be depending on music for Life... and if i fail thats it.. i'm a goner..

So anyways.... Yea.. thats about today.. =p

Posted by wJ at 5:27 PM

Sunday, September 2, 2007

Mushi Mushi!

Hey Everybody(anybody)!

Wells, great news... my prelims are over and i'm pretty much very free now.. Been playing around lots.. watched a whole row of movies in 2 days span.. 881, Evan Almighty, Rush Hour3, Ratatoille. Well the sad news began on Thursday.. I actually failed my best subject Combine Humanities.. and i also failed Combine Science.. HAIZ..... what to do.. baka mono means baka mono.. don't know if studying harder would make any more of a difference liao... try so hard still fail like ------... sigh..

Why ain't there something I can ace at and work at it all my life. haiz.. anyways.. picked up my Pipa and prac around lately.. well guess its no surprise.. I doubt I play better than that woman in the Orchard MRT. why oh why oh why.... Life from happy and rather serious turned depressive on me.. I need to release such emotions yet there ain't really a chance to.. If i show my parents my results i guess that's as good as renewing my jail card.. what should i Do?

Wednesday, my teacher going to release my Accounts Paper.. i hope i got a B3.. cause to cover up for my science and comb humans i need to get at least B3 for all the rest of the paper... which is like.. what kinda idiot can do that..

Posted by wJ at 11:21 PM