Saturday, September 22, 2007
I find myself unable to socialise anymore? I have became so narrow again. The self-centered personality.. subconsciously the personality has revert to its original state just slightly modified.. I seems that in order to protect myself from further troubles and harm I locked my gates. but i don't know how to revert what was done. I face a situation where everything becomes Contradictory. I want to befriend someone yet i can't.. perhaps I am the troublesome one..
Was on the same bus as this classmate of mine this aftnoon. and before my friend left he actually said, "go talk to him, you might just be friends". and i gazed at him for a moment to notice that he was looking at me also.. both of us faced the opposite direction almost immediately when our eyes met. I can tell from his face and eyes that he was trying to communicate with me but maybe i'm wrong and that was what i was hoping for. I tried to say something like hi yet i couldn't do it. so there we were on the bus standing next to each other exchanging glances once a while in silence like idiots.
I don't know if u know of this blog, but if u do.. i got something i want to ask you. its a stupid question that you've answered before but I can't rmb what it was u said or did. stupid as it is yet it still exists. hope 2 be able 2 get in contact soon.. i realli want to solve this b4 i grad..
Posted by wJ at 10:00 PM