Sunday, October 7, 2007
Why am i always portrayed as your toy? You were probably not the 1st person I want to know yet you put yourself in between the lines.. What do you think you were doing...
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Cold? Warm?
Dark? Bright?
Sweet? Sour?
Tears of Sorrow? Tears of Joy?
Liberation? Loneliness?
Admiration? Jealousy?
Why life full of contradictory.. everyday of mine becomes a mere lottery.. They say the best cure is talk about it, yet.. I can't think of anyone I want to pour this troublesome senselessness to. besides I'm not looking forward to getting lectured about it neither. Live in shadows than face reality huh? Coward? or simply protecting myself?.. The un-understandable, the misunderstood. Nothing changes i suppose, perhaps it felt like it has yet it feels like it hasn't. so what on earth is really happening.. Chalet coming soon, somehow thinking about it thinking of what am i gonna do.. yet, also thinking should i even show myself. Anyways... its only a few more days to Os.. Once i'm done... who knows what kind of future lies ahead... every phase is different, we just got to live through to see the next.
Forever alone with myself.. Nothing changes.. nothing might.. or... nothing will...
Posted by wJ at 3:07 PM