Thursday, November 29, 2007
more weird dreams... they just keep coming.. even though they were weird.. i really liked them.. for that few minutes/hours/moments i really just didn't want to wake up.. everything was so real I was living in an age of bliss and happiness.. but all lovely dreams come to an end to find out that it was just a dream -_-... and on another note.. y do i keep dreaming that i am "someones" housekeeper??.. omg is it predestined?? =p...Can dreams come true?? i hope this one does.. =p... or perhaps a better future.. the day and time when i'll never be alone or sad or stressed or depressed.. what an ideal life.. =p... Speaking of which, this just occurred to me that I am actually suppressing all my sadness with games.. perhaps this is the reason why i get irritated/annoyed like SNAP*.. hope i'll get over them..
on a different section.. I've re-modeled my room and its soo much more spacious now.. it definitely can room more than 6 people and confirm with chop.. Looking forward to chalet like OMG!! HURRY UP... =p
Posted by wJ at 11:34 PM
Wednesday, November 28, 2007
did some tests again and i got pretty interesting answers.Your most suited job would be a spy. You are stealthy, cunning and skillful in gathering information. You are only loyal to one who is your master.
This was a fraction of it..
Anyways... geez.. i had a super strange dream this morning.. so strange i swear such a thing will never occur in eternity.. although i liked it but it'll never happen... from realistic situation as from now?? its clearly IMPOSSIBLE... oh wells.. dreams are only fictions from our minds... quietly wishing such a dream comes true* =p
Posted by wJ at 8:31 AM
Sunday, November 25, 2007
what a day yesterday was.. had lesson in the morning and it was pretty much very early than i attended lesson around when i was still 70% or so asleep.. so because of my laziness i got scolded for not being as good/better than those around me.. guess i should really start working things out.. next week shall be a bomb i promise.. i will complete what i must and do what i must.After lesson had a tiring session with Hsing Hai. tiring, perspiring, back aching, mosquito biting performance at OG for an event "IT'S ALL ABOUT YOU".. soo many people crowding over there.. haha but okay..after performance i got to know a few more members here and there. haha they very funny.. had drinks with them.. oh no... i just remembered i haven't pay them.. -_-...
then we dispersed and me xq and nic went to Long John Silver. haaha.. chat a lot of nonsense/trash and a lot of topics...
某个人对某某的东西
某个人没M头过
某人怎么和某某发生关系
ok so it was practically full of trash.. and we're playing the mix and match game again.. hahaa.. matching 2 uncanny people together.. hahaha.. -_-.. OMG no bed to sleep at the chalet at nite cos the girls taking it all -_-..... i'll find something to do about it then... hmmm okayz.. i should go get ready for Hsing Hai soon.. ciaos..
Posted by wJ at 8:54 AM
Wednesday, November 21, 2007
okay pretty much a lot of things happened today yet not too much..had K-Happy(K-Student) today. from 1pm-7pm !!! omg.. sing till bored.. and worse of all.. i was in that air-con room till i now have a fever.. omg.. but it was so fun.. ok so harmonising the duet sux... but it was really fun.. sang all the songs i know/semi-know.. i think when Sam sang the FIR song it ROCKS... so loud, powerful... then we ordered 2 Chicken nugets 1 fries 1 fried sotong ball, 3 fruits 1 mix nuts, 3 lemon honey 1 coke.. sang songs ranging from FRH,FIR,Jay Chou,Sun Yan Tzi, Guo Meimei, etc etc etc .. even to the ANCIENT RETRO songs..
then we split after the whole singing and i was pretty much over chilled already.. then me yq,xq,nic went to Tiong Bahru to eat Mini Steamboat -_-.. wasn't realli very nice but okay.. its quite okay for its price.. then we eat talk talk talk... okay didn't exactly talk much interesting.. more on the food we're cooking i suppose... my Herbal Chicken soup was so fake. the Ginseng was SWEET... totally opposite of what i expected.. Xq's tom yam soup was sooo THICK.. its like gravy.. vry salty/sour.. the chicken soup was pretty blend b4 adding the friend onions..
then we left and i wanted to try the new Mcflurry Mudpie.. but well too bad.. was going into train station so cannot eat.. oh wells. another time i guess.. current temperature is approximately 38.0 degress celsius... omg.. nvr went that high or witnessed myself that high before.. usually the weird person with temperatures of ranging 33-36... nid my sleep i guess.. hope i'll be well tomorrow. my tongue ulcer and my "fever"... unless of cos i'm ill.. if i am.. then its pretty much good game to me.. cos i can only guess what it would be..
perhaps my past/present i have done too many stupid things and will reap my own doom sooner or later.. be smarter ivan.. control yourself / """"yourself""""..
Posted by wJ at 10:19 PM
Thursday, November 15, 2007
hmmz.. okays.. so i had international buffet for lunch at Sakura yet again.. ate my fill and almost exploded... lucky went home 1st b4 going for bowling..Went bowling and well had quite some tiresome fun till the receipt came and i had to pay.. which like totally killed my feel cos i wouldn't have eaten then... but somehow after my feel got killed i got a X... it seems to be vary with my gunbound... play with frens always cannot do well but play with strangers can suddenly very good one.. dunno y.. anyways.. we played 6 games wow... i scored X twice only and rarely spared cos i always get 9 -_-.. anyways i guess it was pretty much overall fun since it was in a group, a rather big one.. everyone had fun so i guess i should to.. not really a fan of big groups but yea i guess its wads better for everyone =)... finally took a pic with Miss Pipa Universe after a looong looong time... Looking forward to Wednesday.. but its at Clementi -_-... soo far... shall bring my laptop along and use it on the bus there hahha... bound to be able to get some work done.. Kbox... =).. i guessed i planned a few songs to sing liaoz.. but i guess i going to malu myself again as always.. =( ... hopefully i can be the superstar of my life =p.. xq jy jy for your test tmr.. u had your fun today liao... =p
hmmz dunno y... the more i can't get something the more i want it.. why?? things just never always work the way u want them. besides.. nothing started so nothing ended and nothing real happened.. we were merely playing with each other.. so why feel withdrawal? comon snap out of it.. this isn't what i planned.. this isn't what i'm going to spend time going through.. it was just a game of entertainment... why am i talking to myself?
a mystery that i go through by myself in a lost dark world...
Posted by wJ at 11:11 PM
Wednesday, November 14, 2007
can't rmb exactly everything that happened last nite but i do remember having that little bit of fun.. didn't win the lucky draw though... its so true that those who win are hated by everyone else... the immense force of envy an jealousy over 1 simple lucky draw... would people actually resort to cheating?? ok so i didn't look my best yesterday unlike majority of everyone walking in suites and tuxs.. i just tried to be middle artistic so wore something more simple instead, after all whos ever going to beat those who are naturally born with a silver spoon (rich family)..I guess my life in ACS i figured this at Barker Road.. the school is split into 4 categories.. The Rich, The Cool, The Intelligent and The Average.. of cause just as it is labelled the Average it lives to its name.. all the students who come from average backgrounds with average academics are those basically thrown out of cliques or the left out or the bullied after all these people come no where near the imaginary hierachy constructed... The Rich of cos are always the more popular ones, who wouldn't want to associate themselves with the rich and hopefully reap the benefits from this friendship.. The Cool is probably one of the hardest category to fit in, it literally knows no boundaries in doing so, it has no real requirements to be cool. you're just it if you're it.. you can't be one by trying nor will you be accepted as one if you copy.. The Intelligent are mostly categorised along side with either the Rich or the Cool.. It seems to be a trait that forms a vicious cycle with the other.. with exception of Cool.. The average are probably people like me, not famous (probably even infamous), not cool, the anti-social (or simple just thrown out of society to begin with).. It makes such people close to impossible to actually try and blend with the other Cats thus only some will survive and form their own clique of probably a mixture of different people.
ACS Barker Road probably brought me the joys of my life and the biggest miseries of my life.. It gave me the Full Package as it promised.. Touch Lives, Enrich Souls, Empower Minds. The other promises like friends and fun were also present.. Even so there was still much unhappiness within the school but things either work out or don't.. Will i miss the school?? perhaps.. will i miss going back to class with my classmates? most probably.. will i miss having the fun times we had during recess laughing and joking with one another?? definitely..
Anyways, today.... started on something big like "working" for my teacher, looks like hard work (in fact probably is) but i guess its something i can do to help myself..
To an extent i can say i learnt a lot of things because of this.. I learnt about the society and probably a glimpse of what is really happening outside our little safety corners..
Today's a bad day i suppose.. it seems like the usual that i have "provoked" the people around me mysteriously so... well nothing changes does it.. I just being my normal self will absorb all the blame be it my fault or not just to prevent conflict.. why do i do this to myself all the time? do i deserve this? perhaps i do.. will anyone ever know wads it like to try to be the nice person and then be told to be the asshole of the year becos u heard it from someone else? I don't know what i really want to do/say/feel anymore... Is my existence actually worth anything?? i guess it does somedays and somedays i'm just a ghost...
a typical life of a lost person lost in a world he doesn't recognise..
Posted by wJ at 11:22 PM
Tuesday, November 13, 2007
ALRITE!!! ITS OVER!!!! ..... NO MORE STUDYING FOR ME!!! WOOHOOO!!! BON AMI!!! Yupiee!!! Bon Ami!!Anyways.... anyways OMGZ.... i cannot deny.. these few weeks have been sort of the most tiring the most fun filled the most meaningful and probably the most erm... i dunno. but anyhows.. Hmm tonite is the nite we graduate from school and never turn our backs again.. is this the end?? or is it real that true friends last? Heh heh.. hmm.. somehow haf the feeling i might miss my classmates.. hmmz.. okay so maybe i haven't been very social or very cool to actually talk to some of them.. hmmz
Alritey... time to go get my hair done. OMGZ!!! I can finally DYE!!.. Anyways.. la la la.. looking forward to all e outings wif my frens who i've barely seen/spoken to for the past 6-7mths?? doo de doo.. ALL MY LIFE THE HOLIDAY I"VE ALWAYS WANTED!!!
BON AMI!!! hopefully my hair is niiice... so i can flaunt it all i want.. muahahaha.... World JUST U WAIT!!!..
HMMMMM should i join my class in an overnite LAN? I totally wonder... feeling pretty uppity and high i just want to do so many things even not having the money to do so. HAHAHA.. I wanna go Kbox, go arcade, go LAN, go Movie, go Overseas, go buy PSP, go drink High Tea.. =p... whee.. FUN FUN FUN..
okay nothing to say liao.. i'm just going to end up repeating everything over and over..
Woohoo! Bon ami!!...
Posted by wJ at 2:42 PM
Saturday, November 10, 2007
wells... okay so probably this is the 1st time in a looooooonnnnggggggg time i actually get to go out/meet my bes bud not being in a group.. at least there was proper conversation going.. rather than the usual "i'm an Xtra"..Omelette Rice we ate.. he had the hamburger set and i had the Potato """"""BACON""""" set... cool thing is.. wheres the bacon?? " Ohhhh there it is.. that small little cube there... awww how sweet.. i paid $6.90 for a cube of BACON... i'm so gonna kick his roundys... besides, shouldn't eat too much bacon neither.. the new CANCER is IN... Cigarettes are like OUT and Bacon are IN to the latest fashion of CANCER... how disturbing is that... there goes my BK Bacon Burger... bye bye... miss you..
After lunch (which i waited for him for 40-50mins cos someone was ENJOYING himself watching a MOVIE.. "thank you for letting me STONE ALONE without knowing WHY), we went Popular which really doesn't make itself Popular at all... anyways we saw this CD-ROM "Guilty Gears" which is the game we ALWAYS play at Arcade and was like oooooooooo.... $19.90.. Ouch, thats $10 : $10... we walked a bit more.. oooo Digimon Cyber D edition.. $19.90 for 2... OOOOO Tamagochi... and he asks, "what does Tamagochi do?" and what did i say? " i dunno, eat, play, poop and if i rmb correctly the latest version allows you to connect and mate??" how twisted can cute animals get... so we decided to get the CD-Rom since it was most tempting.. the rest can wait another time when we're just too rich and we just got too much time to kill.. hopefully that impossibility will happen.. haha..
Then went to his unsurprisingly ""small"" house... its not really small.. its just crammed with A LOT of things and i mean A LOT.... and we played the CD we bought.. hah had so much fun slapping each others' Virtual Character.. then we had a short prac for a while.. and he showed me his looonnnngg Peacock song... which i seriously will die hearing it if it goes any slower... wish him all the best for tmr's rehearsal.. damn when can i actually do a concerto also. i waaann.. (ha wishful thinking.. maybe in another year or 2 when i OWN Intermediate Category for NCMC which i swear i WILL)... muahaha... i must prove my worth and that i'm capable of anything and everything... Nothing shall stop me haha... (wad a liar)
Then we came to this thinking.. i luv comp so much i luv game so much... y not go Poly and do Game Designing/Development.. sounds cool and awfully FUN but FRIGGIN HARD... i read the Basic Game Production Guidebook b4.. ITS THICKER THAN MY MUSIC Dictionary.. -_-.. and that was only Basic.. but oh wells i'll see how it goes when my results are posted... X_X
To tomorrow??? hope i get to haf more fun tmr... everyones pretty busy leaving me and nic... and we're pretty like not here not there people.. ha..... we nid someone to set a road... anyways.. ya. hahha..... I WANT TO WORK FOR MONEY NOW NOW NOW....
Already begun designing for wad to wear for Grad Nite.. I think all my Shirts and Pants are ugly.. I WANT NEW ONES!!! I WANT TO HAVE THE WARDROBE OF THE RUNWAY.. sorry.. pretty insane... lucky not many people know this blog and know i'm that crazy... but hey... anyone who has come across me knows i'm pretty much psychotic or they probably met my Black self which is Cold and Hard...
Posted by wJ at 10:03 PM
yesterday had a shitty outing.. went to Raffles City at around 7+ and got stuck in a traffic jam.. thats not all.. when i reached there.. we stoned through time. how fun.. wasted time and money.. sniffs* and was mortally wounded thanks to someone. i swear i'll revenge when the time comes... and it won't be a direct payback of wad u did to me.. Hahahaha.. Be afraid be very afraid..Anyway... finally.. today's Recruit seems more decent.. found a few more interesting spots and positions but some require walk-in interview today or tomorrow.. sigh.. Later might be going out with classmate again and probably play arcade again. yay. kills time.
oh no i think i have fallen in love with that person... i somehow managed to coincidentally find that person's scent and now its stuck.. wad am i going to do... craps... this is not suppose to happen..
graduating and i won't see my class again. just how sad could that be.. somehow when u see them many times u feel happy ure never seeing them again but when its going to be the last time you see them its like wow.. i don't want this to end... its like a party disband.. haiz.. guess shit always happens... not my 1st time feeling disbands anyways.. lost everything important and close to important and non-important... and someone said more good things will come.. its been 1 year i dun see it.. -_-| oh wells.... enjoying this song now... feels so.. i'm so... nvm..
Posted by wJ at 10:09 AM
Thursday, November 8, 2007
omg... Exams are like OOVVVVEEERRR.... means its the season to work.. =p... not really, especially for a lazy bum like me.. but anyways ha... i need money to stay IN and Fashionable.. so this is the plan.. I must save to buy myself PSP slim from working ( unlike someone who can just save for it grumble* ) I must earn enough !!PLAN AFTER Nov 13
- Dye my hair RED / Bleached Blonde
- Work
- Buy PSP Slim
- Chalet with frens
- Consider joining wadeva my class is doing
- Play to my heart's content
- ENJOY THE BEST HOLIDAY OF MY ENTIRE LIFE
- NEVER EVER HAVE TO REPEAT MY ACADEMIC YEAR IN ACS
yea thats about that.. ha... maybe i should try silver white also.. haha wink* probably job hunting tmr... Morning Call is set at 10am.. ha.. hope we manage to find the good spots and hopefully we manage to clinch the position.. =) how ideal.. ha ha ha.. Wish Tmr lots of GOOD LUCK.. =p
Posted by wJ at 10:17 PM
Tuesday, November 6, 2007
omg... i went back to school today for O level and not so surprisingly i got "disturbed" by my class 2 biggest idiots.. 1 hugged me and wanted to sleep and the other was like behind me and trying to get my attn instead.. so they end up fighting over me for a short period.. O_O... cool... i'm so ""popular"" ha...oh my.. why do I kind of like you? I shouldn't be...
Anyways.. la la.. O levels ending ending ending I REPEAT ENDING!!! >_> haha. I wanna have all the fun i can EVER HAVE that i COULDN'T HAVE b4 this very moment.. GO GO GO..... =p...
To everyone else.. ALL E BEST =p
Posted by wJ at 7:30 PM
Friday, November 2, 2007
If you wanted to kill a bird.. why drag its torment... give the bird hope and then break its wings later... feed it water and food and chop its beak off next..Sigh... what am i to do now.. hopeless and probably going to line up to be useless.. my Life seriously SUCKS... i can never do what i settle down and put my whole freaking heart to achieve.. NEVER... you know how shitty that feels?? to really want to give your all fail or succeed to know at least u gave your best fucking shot rather than you weren't even able to attempt?? I've been pulled down by many things/people in my life and it still occurs.. Should I just die and end in the miserable fires of the screaming pits of hell? I don't see purpose anymore..
Why do something when you're not going to use it in the future.. Why spend your energy and time and money to learn something to throw aside as a hobby. Why am I always not allowed to do the things I really want to do.. Why.. no one seems to be able to convince me why my life sucks so badly.. I'm willing to fail trying yet I don't get to try.. I guess my life was just full of hoping and then giving up... Someone up there should just give me up also... I don't want to live in human existence anymore.. I might possibly even hate human living to the core.. if i had 3 wishes
1) Obliterate the world of human beings including me
2) Destroy any form of God
3) Never let a single wish be granted from here on.
Why am I always such a prick? how can i not be when every time i find something to be happy about its like building a 5m big sand castle and a bulldozer knocks it down.... I got nothing to say, nothing I really want to do anymore and nothing to wish or hope for.. Everything is pretty much gone now... I can go join the queue of the tallest building where everybody lines up to jump off the roof.. (Never gif this person hope if its gonna be crushed later)