Friday, November 2, 2007

If you wanted to kill a bird.. why drag its torment... give the bird hope and then break its wings later... feed it water and food and chop its beak off next..

Sigh... what am i to do now.. hopeless and probably going to line up to be useless.. my Life seriously SUCKS... i can never do what i settle down and put my whole freaking heart to achieve.. NEVER... you know how shitty that feels?? to really want to give your all fail or succeed to know at least u gave your best fucking shot rather than you weren't even able to attempt?? I've been pulled down by many things/people in my life and it still occurs.. Should I just die and end in the miserable fires of the screaming pits of hell? I don't see purpose anymore..

Why do something when you're not going to use it in the future.. Why spend your energy and time and money to learn something to throw aside as a hobby. Why am I always not allowed to do the things I really want to do.. Why.. no one seems to be able to convince me why my life sucks so badly.. I'm willing to fail trying yet I don't get to try.. I guess my life was just full of hoping and then giving up... Someone up there should just give me up also... I don't want to live in human existence anymore.. I might possibly even hate human living to the core.. if i had 3 wishes

1) Obliterate the world of human beings including me

2) Destroy any form of God

3) Never let a single wish be granted from here on.

Why am I always such a prick? how can i not be when every time i find something to be happy about its like building a 5m big sand castle and a bulldozer knocks it down.... I got nothing to say, nothing I really want to do anymore and nothing to wish or hope for.. Everything is pretty much gone now... I can go join the queue of the tallest building where everybody lines up to jump off the roof.. (Never gif this person hope if its gonna be crushed later)

Posted by wJ at 11:34 PM