Friday, December 7, 2007
A feeling that goes beyond feeling its feel? Is it a phase? All literature say it is, but i don't want it to past.. there is only so much one can handle.. the pain in being in this phase is probably indescribable.. what are the rewards? As fact, there are no rewards for the past nor present and it is unlikely to bear anything for the future neither.. in short it is useless and pretty much fruitless.. as of now, i'm not happy yet i'm happy.. a mixture of pure opposites.. how complex could things get.. if it wasn't for a start and a process to form an end.. this wouldn't have happened.. basically, it started and it went through the process and it almost ended but it didn't.. it was left hanging.. the confusion to decide between to end it all or to ignore it.. through ignoring it, the cycle repeats itself over and over..
What makes life life?? the experience? the turning points? the phases? we were all educated in one way or another that life is basically about achieving our dreams our ideal or somewhere along those lines and for another batch.. it is to live a human life serving God.. What if God doesn't exist.. such a theory cannot be proven, why? because to deny that God exists it will question to how did Man come about.. to theoretically say that Man is an evolved species from "our ancestors".. Then.. who made "our ancestors"?? a giant cosmic blast they so called it the "Big Bang" with the use of cosmic radiation to combine molecules and atoms to form plants, water, earth, animals and humans?? Makes no sense.. Everything becomes so unclear if you trace both theories together.. If you follow according to the Bible, God made man and all the creatures and living things on Earth. Man lived in ages where they fear God's wrath and the Saviour of Mankind also known as Jesus Christ, Son of God, sacrificed himself for the people.. of all the living creatures the existence of the dinosaurs seem inexistent but human theories and research proves they exist.. how are these going to match.. Is there a bigger concept/theory/knowledge out there that goes beyond Historical Archive of the Human past & Man made/researched theories???
Life filled with so much uncertainty and doubts.. what to believe in? People say seeing is believing.. Science could show so could Religion.. The pure mixtures of confusion going in the heads of those who bother..
Anyways back to less textful stuffs.. Geez.. it had to rain when i wanted to go out.. besides i'm short of cash.. must be a gentle reminder that I don't have what it takes to go out.. haha.
Quite boring at home though.. sit around play mahjong play game practice... i over worked my left fingers.. i feel slight twitches of pain moving them now.. and my thumb hurts during tiao.. so much happening..
Posted by wJ at 6:47 PM