Sunday, December 23, 2007
okay.. today HH rehearsal quite okay. 1st half of the day stoned so i was outside with jeremy and weiling.. and i was forced to stay in the photocopy room with them to listen to their KongQue... haha i only corrected jeremy since i doubt i'm in any way able to correct weiling instead.. so i made him stop being a pencil poking the bubble. =p... and finally got to play Hong Mei.. MY FAVOURITE... haha.. love the erhu melody... haha. i want to hear it again and again... =p.. guess i very long never hear mellow sounds and i just love that kind of sound.. =p only bowed string instruments can produce..
then after rehearsal supposedly all wanted to go home so i was like =( ... but it was raining and we played games.. fine.. my chinese grammar is like crap... so i failed the games... feel so stupid... at home everyday talk chinese & luv to sing chinese song yet my chinese sux.. saded.. anyways after some long time... they decided not to go home but go Pastamania. partially happy cos dun haf to go home so early =p... talk about a lot of things.. things related to HuaYue and pairings.. guess heard a few things and got realli realli sianed cos they brought back memories especially those i tried VERY VERY VERY hard to put behind me.. guess thats my own character's fault.. i barely move on.. i always reminisce the past.. aiya.. dunno la... li dat means li dat i suppose.. cannot be helped. LoL... 1st time someone say i look like Uni student. okay la. i know i got old man face... then after all the everything everyone went to take MRT and i take BUS alone.. so saded.. nvm should be getting used to it liao.. after all i'm more or less gonna spend my life alone also.. so better do something about the problems i have being alone.. sigh.. but i hate being alone in any way or form.. i say stupid things like.. "Leave me Alone" and i take it back 5mins later or lesser..
haiz... tomorrow Christmas Eve.. nothing special i suppose... i never went to make any gathering or whatsoever so i guess i'll spend it like how i do every year.. sit in my room alone and thinking or dreaming of the never wills. sigh... now got thoughts of repeating O levels.. haiz.. but like they said i'm not cut for College... but my parents insist its just becos i love my computer and games and friends and music more than my studies so i refuse to study properly.. which i think is rather true also.. aiya my own fault if i screw up.. just feel that my life has entered a phase a pure joy and happiness already but that has already passed and will never occur again.. i can never be as happy like i used to be a few years back.. i find it hard to wake up in the morning and look in the mirror to see myself smiling.. i just see a pair of cold eyes staring back..
i guess i sort of look forward to tuesday more not because it's Christmas but because theres HH rehearsal so i'll see my friends again... but doubt we'll be going out anyways.. high likely everyone has their own program... so probably i'll have to go home also.. sian..
sigh... i think i've been living under someone's shadow very long liao (i'm not offending u if u read this).. met up with an old CO player person i know.. apparently for her to contact me she'll have to go past another person of higher recognition... haiz... i shall continue living under ba... dun think i'll ever have the chance to be known as me instead of that person's friend or something.. aiya nvm.. shall not say further... i think it feels offensive liao..
hahaha okay la KB.. nxt time gif u flower and puff la =p... when u want.. u can pre-order for 30th also.. XQ want also?? =p... Jeremy dunid.. hahh.. he got vinegar can liao.. =p... hah kidding..
Posted by wJ at 11:01 PM