Thursday, January 31, 2008
well.. i'm going Taiwan.. so i'll be gone on the 17th Feb.. till the 24th Feb.. 8 days.. and i'll miss the 1st rehearsal of this year for HsingHai oops.. hmmm Golden Dream is finally coming to a confirm superb.. anyways yea... been out playing again today.. since it's all free.. might as well go.. nothing to loose ha.. anyways tomorrow.. going to go K hope still got money left and then well see how after that.. i'm going to get my hair colored again. gonna color it like Hanazawa Rui.. ooo..
Sunday having photoshoot.. wow sounds fun.. ok.. my mum told me "are u sure u want to color your hair like this? it may seem fashion now but in the years to come you might look at your picture and say, why do i look so out of place" hahahaha... but i don't care.. I WANT!!..
watched a few episodes of Meteor Garden... omg the F4 is like vomit*.. sorry all JVKV fans.. i prefer the Hana Yori Dango F4 more.. hi5*.. majority of the people all think so too.. ha i spent a WHOLE 2 hours trying to connect to Japanese Radio yesterday.. just to listen to " All Night Nippon ". the DJ is Oguri Shun, his show starts at 1am-5am JST (11pm-2am Singapore time).. wonder why he works at such an awkward time.. and its every wednesday.. so i must catch.. ha.. but well there ain't any online connections to that frequency or channel.. so sad.. but there are some recordings of previous shows.. i listened to one where his guest host was Toma (Nakatsu/金秀伊 for the Japanese Hana Kimi) and it was pretty funny.. their caller was a girl.. and what they had to do was try and guess a secret she is keeping
She is collecting something
Only her brother knows about this secret but treats it like a toy
Her father must not know about it
you cannot imagine what silly ideas they came up with..
Oguri: are you collecting mobile phones?.. (hahhaha silly answer)
they plead her to give them 1 more clue.. Ririka-chan.. onegaishimas..
"it is something you both have"
Toma was funny enough to write down on his piece of paper.. Chest Hair.. and well he said he had no idea why he wrote it even though they both don't have it.. hahha.. so in the end they failed to guess her secret.. hahah so funny.. had hard time trying to listen to what they saying and trying to understand hahaha...
XUEQI GAMBATE for tomorrow's FINAL PAPER!
Posted by wJ at 11:53 PM
Tuesday, January 29, 2008
ii....
feeling everything right now.. the phases pass and start.. it all started with the phase of confusion.. followed by acceptance and joy and happiness.. then came the phase of reality.. which was covered by lies, sick mind games, mistakes. then after the phase of loss... emptiness, sadness, bitterness... then came the phase of chance.. and then the phase of letting go.. in life i guess we all have to let go of things sooner or later.. nothing can be yours forever unless it was meant to be.. i may sit and pout and do whatever but it won't change the circumstances now.. its over.. when will i stop lying to myself and stop having the word Chance running through me. can't believe i actually fell for this.. but it hurts so much on the inside.. i just want to drown myself.. every moment i feel this feeling.. i try to ignore it but that seems impossible.. like i said.. i'm stupid to chase after nothing..
hating can't remove the things you want removed.. nor wishing giving u what you want.. i keep telling myself to let go but i can't.. i never imagined such a future.. haha guess my birthday wish came true in a way.. just to bring me back the equal amount of pain for joy.. i walk around sighing like everything is going to be over.. just glad i'm going Taiwan soon.. i don't want to stay longer to know that i can contact those i don't want to contact yet want to contact but makes me regret after contacting... how silly.. but by all i still must remove myself from the picture soon.. i don't want to linger on because of a past.. may the future bring me better joy..
Sorry and all the best.. wish you happiness.. take care
Posted by wJ at 12:51 AM
Saturday, January 26, 2008
hey hi.. so betya some must be curious about how i did. well i did really badly.. i didn't clear Math and Science.. was sad for 1hour but moved on.. i got my backup plan which was to study Arts Management.. quite happy about it cause it's something i'm interested in also. well yes, that is the plan. so when i get admitted school term will being in August which is still a long way from now. gives me ample time to practice and get a job..
today.. went to Sam's place for high tea.. haha.. ok was quite boring watching the same videos i already saw yesterday except for Sun Huang's.. Oh my god.. i just love her playing.. anyway well yea.. then after that i showed the few of us a demo of my not so good Golden Dream.. haha i'll practice hard and make people fall in love with my music one day. HA.. happy dreaming..
Xueqi went to Novena cause she had a gig there.. not bad pay.. and since its also near my area and its convenient i accompany her there and also to have dinner.. ha.. walked around the whole of Novena Shopping Centre and well we tried every restaurant but all those that were nice to eat had long queues.. in the end we made decision to have dinner at Sakae. although we really wanted to eat at the Hansang Korean Family Restaurant but well.. we're not knowledgeable of how the things work there and if it's nice.. so i must find an opportunity to go there and eat one day and if it's nice get xueqi to tag along. haha.. looks really cool and high class. then we sat at Sakae ate lots of varieties of stuff and chatted about stuffs also.. quite funny stuffs.. then started talking about future again.. haha the living together thing.. so fun.. but well.. long time to go.
so addicted to drama still.. watching Hana Yori Dango.. the Japanese version of Meteor Gardens.. love one of the Male leads.. so cool.. his hair so nice.. ha.. i want something like that.. haha.. in future..
Posted by wJ at 10:48 PM
Wednesday, January 23, 2008
MADNESS!!!! everytime i'm alone i can't help feeling all weird and mixed up inside.. sigh... now still got Results coming in like 15hours or so... ARGHHHHHHHHHHH..... maybe should walk to school and hope car bang me down =X... na thats dumb... did a approximate of whats the worse that could happen to my results.. and felt that the worst might just be a 99% chance of actually happening.. SCARED TO DEATH... i'm getting cranky and slightly suicidal... AHHHHHH STRESS..... sigh.
Posted by wJ at 10:54 PM
Tuesday, January 22, 2008
okk BLOG..
Last Friday 18 Jan i went out with classmates to have some fun.. we played arcade and LAN and watched CLOVERFIELD.. hmmm not a movie to recommend if you're those who prefer ones with a proper story line.. but a heck of a recommendation if you just love DESTRUCTION, GORE, BOMBINGS, EXPLOSIONS, TOTAL CITY CHAOS, SCREAMING AND DYING, and the best of it all.. ANTI HERO STORY... isn't it just soo amazing.. haha
Monday 21 Jan kinda repeated process while leaving LAN shop.. we received a phone call.. "eh results coming out on Thursday NewPaper write liao.. everyone was like.. "omg gg.. we're dead.. finished.. DIE LIAO... faints*" now after all these months of slack and fun its finally time for judgement.. whether u studied and made it or studied and didn't make it or never studied and somehow made it or never studied and you're finished.
Tuesday 22 Jan which is Today.. spend my whole day practicing.. i must have good results to show by Friday.. cannot disappoint anyone including myself.. O level results have become just something that'll occur.. doesn't really bother me anymore.. although i might still shake and whatever from thinking about it but I think i'll scrape through or at least half the world i know believes so.. Now i'm addicted to another Japanese Drama... Meteor Garden.. haha.. the Jap version.. the male leads are soo cool..ok i only think 1 of them is.. same actor for Hana Kimi's "Sano / Zhuo Yi Quan".. haha.. ok ya.
Stay happy and yea u get the point..
Posted by wJ at 11:42 PM
Thursday, January 17, 2008
ok so my mum went for another checkup wif another doctor.. seems like shes fine... which is so OMG?? scare me no reason.. haha listening to my FRH 2nd Album "MEN EDITION" ahhhhh LUV the songs... got 1 person in there singing SOO COOL.. anyways... oh wells.. i just can't match the speed of fans.. i happened to see Teens Magazine at my downstairs Minimart and the Display Cover was Tang Yu-Zhe so i told a FAN i know of.. and well.. ha she got it eons ago.. lol i'm never up to date... guess i don't watch enough Entertainment TV anymore and I barely visit Fan Forums liao.. darn... why are people so lucky to have the looks to be a star.. i have none -_-.. i can go be ordinary man.. -_- people call me "cute"/"帅"/"charming" but i find it hard to believe.. must be saying it to make me happy only. ha.
I finally had my twister fries today.. sigh.. i can't buy Bus Concession until I get my new Student Pass.. so for these few months TRAVELLING IS EXPENSIVE.. take 1 bus 67c take 1 train $1.40.... money oh money.. flew away from my hands just by travelling..
anyways.. Yay.. Chinese New Year is COMING. means more money to deposit into my personal account this time.. of cos i'll separate a %age to put into my Future Savings account.. then i want to buy myself a PSP.. so i can use for poly.. while i take a Loooonnngggg bus trip home.. finding interesting ways that are not so new to entertain myself. O level results coming out.. i'm like FRIGGIN SCARED.. wad if i don't do well? wad if i screw up? wads next? Maritime?? Vomits*
Have faith in myself.. i got study for it and I have hope and faith and confidence i can still make it to the School Of Business is SP or something.. Aspire*
i miss school somehow.. but only occurs sometimes almost rarely.. ha.. i haven't received any calls for relief class taking for Chinese Language Syllabus B Sec2 yet.. guess it'll never come.. probably the HOD my ex Chinese teacher wouldn't approve neither.. haha.. left bad impression of my Chinese and i was his Chinese Rep because during speech lesson I was the most fluent and most philosophical spoken one.. oops.
was thinking something fun.. i want to participate in the World Cyber Games with my own Custom made team.. omg.. i believe we can own everyone in Singapore and move on to the international competition. hahaha..
Posted by wJ at 10:28 PM
drugs are bad... yup they are.. haha.. stimulants may cause partial insanity for a temporial moment.. wad they call high.. still rmb what it was like to sniff pop.. although i don't have any immediate effects but i have after effects.. i start talking to myself insanely and start saying things to myself like hahaha i'm sober.. i'm not drunk.. wheee.. -_- pretty crazy huh..
anyways today.. got to know someone new but ya... i wouldn't say i'll talk to him much because i'm already making my environment very cold towards people.. wells ya.. don't really want to say much about this
anyways.... friday is playday again hahah but so saded.. i think it's not long b4 i got to say bye to another person part of my life.. my mum went to see doctor.. doctor said her heartbeat is abnormal... it is far TOO SLOW... my mum thinks it's because she's gonna loose her breath soon already.. its only a matter of time.. sigh.. nothing much to comment on it..
hahaha i got the One Missed Call ringtone as my phone's ringtone.. PLEASE DO NO CALL ME AT NITE WHEN I'M SLEEPING.. cos i'll seriously scream for my life.. hahaha.. OMG bus soo expensive without bus pass.. sat on a bus and it costs me 65c to 67c!! omg... wonder how's train gonna slash my money..
hahha had a feeling of trying to be cool again.. those people who are cool are soo cool.. i wanna be like em in a way.. ha.. but guess i'm too uncool to be cool ba.. not charming not cool not good looking.. a combo package for life's misery in staring at the mirror.. HAHA..
Posted by wJ at 12:05 AM
Monday, January 14, 2008
lol.... well this afternoon quite silly.. practiced my share.. and then went to Novena to play arcade O_o... played for about 30mins and found out i really suck at driving games now.. so i tried the Pinball machine.. COORRREEECCTTT... i push the button but the flipper not flipping.. until the ball dropped in and a few seconds after it started flipping when i push it.. -_-!! ... so i went to play the match the block to win a Nintendo DS Lite... while i was playing.. i was distracted thanks to some FUGLY uncle... wtf.... people watch from a far.. this asshole was literally standing right behind me... made me miss and i didn't even reach Minor Prize... stupid old ass..
then me and my classmates taxied over to Paradiz where we met the others for LAN... play 2 matches of DOTA and a few rounds of CS and decided to go watch Movie... AVP2??? but some n00b strongly objected so we watched One Miss Call at PS 17.15 show... it was like so dumb.... whole show me and my friend just keep relating it with a game... making the whole story just a game.. and then everytime when we know someone will die i'll start saying GG.... then my fren say where got... dun bullshit la.. then OHHH GG... the guy just got impaled... NIIICE... then i told him the dead corpse will start moving after she remove the phone he say bullshit but it did in the end.. hahaha... and then we started suspecting the TEDDY BEAR is the murderer!!! hahah... and then the Teddy Bear started moving as if it just awoken but it was actually just moved by the stupid detective -_-... lol we're gonna get the ringtone and put it in our phones. SOO COOL.... hahaha.. i miss call you ar... i put strepsils in your throat so later u die u'll spit it out. HAHAHAHAHAAH
Posted by wJ at 10:35 PM
okay.. its been VERY LONG... well haha okay lots of things happened..
I went out to have Lunch Buffet with my classmates on Wednesday.. we spent all our money till we were empty.. haha.. bought all sorta things after lunch.. i was still highly attracted to Cineleisuire's E-Max Sales that was selling Computer games for $10 for opened games and $15 for unopened games.. OMG I want to buy STARCRAFT...
Then well Saturday was quite a bore... sat home all day playing comp... out of 24hours i think the comp was left on 20hours.. of cos i still afked and practice... but yea.. that was all about Saturday... Wrote more stuffs in my Black Book..
Sunday well... Had lesson was quite happy with it.. went to Novena to deposit Cash... and then was badly tempted to buy VCDs from Poh Kim.. Hana Kimi was like $20+.. but then i thought maybe i go Sembawang check out the difference. OMG.. Sembawang is SOOO Expensive.. but poh kim only sell the album of FRH from the X family... however i saw the FRH's 2nd album at Sembawang.. the 2 sided album.. haha.. The Men Edition and The Boy Edition... The Men edition was long and thin (came with a DVD for a few MVs and a few Xtra Tracks ), the Boy Edition was short and Fat.. ( only comes with extra tracks unlike the Men Edition ).. The Men Edition was $19.90 and the Boy Edition was $13.90... so i bought the MenEdition.. and they gave me this plastic wrapped thing along with the Album and i thought it was posters. so i was Happy.. since it looked like there was 4.. =)... woooo someone's inside.. but when i reached home and took it out. OMG its those plastic paper holders!!.. and i only got 2.. Jiro and Aaron... i was like NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO wheres my Wuzun!!!!... so okay quite saded.. hahahaha.... then well at nite.. i just watched AVP and Life is not like a Dream (true story of Fantasia Buerrino) was busy switching between movies hahaa.. then after that watched Anime... listened to the new album i bought!! woo... love it... NO REGRETS.. other than the folder thingy.. I WAN WUZUN!!!! anybody got want to exchnge for Aaron or Jiro?? PLEASE. =p... Onegai-shimas. =p
I think later today i'll be going out with school mates again and i want to eat Twister Fries.. luv them..and they only come once a LONG LONG LONG time.. Gooo Twister.. =)
Posted by wJ at 8:58 AM
Sunday, January 6, 2008
hi happy readers.. if you're not at least put a smile and you'll forget what you're upset about.. =p
haha been happy happy these few days.. just do what i normally do to entertain myself... and i guess i successfully kicked a certain habit already.. =p.. clap for myself*.. of cos apart from last nite.. which a small incident got me a little ya... but oh wells last nite was last nite nows now tomorrow is tomorrow.. haha =)
i made a discovery.. the silly things i think of and the foolish things i make up are NORMAL.. haha.. i'm not declared as insane anymore.. isn't that just great.. okay.. but i guess makes no diff cos its just nonsense talk anyways hahaha..
hmm you know? i think i'm able to control how i feel and what i want more and more.. =) .. i dun overthink/do things like i used to anymore.. =).. guess that's improvement for me.. hmm guess everything just really needed time.. and they've turned out quite well.. of cos for some who are up there won't get to see a better me anymore.. miss them.. had a D anniversary yesterday.. i guess i still miss those who aren't around anymore.. especially those who were very important people and well 1 who i liked a lot.. but oh wells.. theres much more ahead to chase after =).. haha..
tomorrow got some fancy event for lunch at HH.. haha free Lunch oOps.. hahah.. i did my share in selling the tickets =p.. YG for lesson tmr.. =( .... i wanna do more more more.. hmm heard a few here and there.. happy for em.. sad for myself.. but wad does it matter.. its still happy overall.. =p... haha.. okies cya around..
Posted by wJ at 11:25 AM
Wednesday, January 2, 2008
真正的喜欢一个人是个多么痛苦的感觉。我现在知道为什么成年人或青少年有时性情非常复杂。经验过才能了解某个人的性情。
那对于对某个人有感觉或暗恋某个人要怎么对付呢? 我们只能希望有个顺利的路走吧。我自己本身还没死心也可能不想放弃，但是我为什么要这样作? 何苦呢? 我真是不理解为什么东西要变成那么复杂。
那有句话说，如果你真的要给某个人开心，那就让某个人追求某个人自己想要最开心的生活，牺牲自己的感情来让某个人过快乐的生活才是最了不起的一件事。我想，我
能办得到吗?
Posted by wJ at 11:29 PM
Tuesday, January 1, 2008
it only happens once a while.. i feel bewitched by the words u say... but i should let it all go away.. the spell shall end and my pain hopefully along with it..
i hope that now things have started in a new year.. i will stop thinking about this and let it go.. it is time to let it go like letting a ship set sail towards a great waterfall.. only memories exist.. in 5-8years time u might hear from me not normally but in a more special manner.. but that might also just be our last contact.. for now.. everything will take its course naturally.. or the most natural way would do..
well 2007 went and 2008 is here..
i thought of something really silly.. could i try starting afresh by really starting afresh even with my friends.. where we start from scratch.. but that will never happen because scratch already happened.. unless i got into some accident and lost a fraction of my memories.. the phenomenon of dreams are sometimes so happy yet some are just searing.. i wake up every morning with sore eyes.. only reason to explain why would be that i just had a bad dream and teared away..
i wanna see and talk to someone again and thought maybe we could forget what happened in the past and start over.. but that of cos i highly doubt will ever happen.. whats over never comes back.. i can scheme my way but its not worth it..
what to do.. forget about it..
what i want i will never get.. what i don't want its forever around me.. i hope life could be fairer to me this year.. i can only begin to imagine the great battle at the end of this year.. no mercy on the stage.. it is a fight for everything..
the immeasurable pains i wish begone.. let it leave me forever and beyond..
i feel tempted to contact some people.. some of the past and some i should never begin.. why?
Posted by wJ at 11:40 PM