Monday, March 31, 2008
so hahha.. ok fine i'm jobless YET again.. but its not because i refused to go for a dumb jab. its because they changed the plan in lesser than 48hours b4 i start work.. disgusting pigs.. and if its only a slight change i might not mind but THEY CHANGED EVERYTHING!!!!
anyways.. hahaha been watching Shonen-ai again lately.. and got that feeling again but nvm.. i shall ignore it.. although it left me sleepless but i guess i'll be fine ha..
duno y... i seem to make small things big.. april the 3rd is coming.. and i dun want to actually think about it but its ringing in me.. -_- ... the sadness of how the cruelty of the past can twist the future.. suppose i can't say much since things are already twisted as it is.. =X
anyway April is coming which means my Audition/Test is coming also.. all e best to me for my entrances.. and all e best to all starting school already... Gambate to everyone in everything we're aiming/doing/pursuing this year =)
Posted by wJ at 1:21 PM
Friday, March 28, 2008
had this thought for a few days.. "what would be the use to have a blade and have it sheathed forever, it will soon lose its cutting edge and soon won't be something offensive nor defensive."
anyway.. well good news i got a job.. i work from 9-3pm.. so its 6hours so i make quite a sum a day.. or at least enough to survive.. if my job goes well for the 1st week i might extend the hours so i can make a proper earning. but of cos before all these happen i must 1st get typhoid. hopefully i can get the tablets tomorrow.. i don't want to go for a jab.. i'll QUIT!! ... sorry.. very picky about needles and stuffs.!! sigh.. the Christian shop at Kallang Leisure Park offering free piercing if u buy any of their earings which can be given off as presents or something since they're only $2.. trust a Christian shop more.. HA!!!.. because it is supposedly done by Holy people!! haha.. ok la.. the lady there very nice..
so today we had a Discount Day i would call it.. had Pastamania and had students 30% off!!! OMG 30%!!!!... that was for like lunchish dinner.. then had a can of soda/drink at SOL market.. then well we had Laksa dinner / Mee siam at Wang Cafe because it was 15% off for students haha.. budget budget!!.. bought the pres at a discount cos of member! haha.. we actually wanted to arcade or something but because nic no casual attire so cannot go in cos he is in SchoolU. the sad thing about wearing it.. disables your free roam..
well so far.. i've got quite a lot of things to pay. my card has gone to haah!!! nvm.. its very small.. smaller than $50.. it was $375.. WAS... ok can't complain.. i'm 17 have to manage my own financial needs and planning.. since i pay quite a lot of things myself recently.. BECOS ITS HOLIDAYS!! it is only most natural that i go and get work and make a revenue..
wish my week 1 happy and not so stress that i want to quit already.. whatever it is i must persevere. hahaha... must keep it going!!.. money money money!!
ok got phone call!!... i'll re-update soon.
Posted by wJ at 11:14 PM
Friday, March 21, 2008
right.. spent a lot of days being money minded... because now i'm really low on money... and i should really stop letting myself reject jobs.. i mean if i just keep saying this won't work that won't work... i'll just run out of money this holidays.. and thats bad news... because i got so many things i want to get... and i made plans for them for so long.. funny enough... mum told me to go try out modeling hahaha!!.. i cannot imagine if they would actually take me in.. if they do.. OMG.. i think i can get myself A LOT of things.. but ok nvm.. see how..
saw MetalBlow last night... pretty interesting... using Metal Plates as a form of an instrument.. but i felt that the pipa and the trombone was sadly boring.. everyone was pretty much bored to tears.. Boon Lay so lak kak... sell Thai Ice Tea... drank the 1st few sips thought it was too sweet... halfway down the drink.. i just felt like puking.. so threw it away... lak kak drink..
looking back at pasts again.. so natural that i ever do that.. think about it.. ponder over it.. wonder about it.. but oh well.. nothing will change.. the present cannot fit in the past nor can the past fit in the present..
sigh.. tomorrow Golden Dream.... i'm not ready for part V.... its seriously HARD to memorize what i'm doing... i probably need 1 more week... i sort of can memorize the melody and stuff just the notations will take a little longer.. Ambush coming up... and Dragon Boat..
Sunday Li Sheng Jie will be at Junction8 for an autograph session... hmmm maybe will pop by and see.. quite curious how many supporters will there be.. if very little then maybe buy a CD and let him sign.. hahaha... IF....
Interesting events i want to be at... David Tao's Concert and Nicholas Zhang's Concert.. haha.. hope i can get free tickets... haha ask my brother help me ask Warner Music Singapore and UnUsUaL Entertainments for tics.. ha..
Posted by wJ at 11:20 PM
Saturday, March 15, 2008
我愛著誰 愛到我有點醉
告訴我妳是誰 能夠把我讓我變不對
你不會累 但我卻愛你愛到好累
從沒有為了誰 不顧安慰付出一切
站在這平衡點 我還是覺得有點危險
或許是看不見 只能夠靠感覺
他不會是個好男人 也不會是個好情人
你對我說 我們只是擦肩而過
好的男人有那麼多 少了他的日子也能過
我不會再讓你寂寞 也不會讓你更難過
你聽我說 要好好學著去生活
就算未來有多少錯 至少還有我的問候 我的溫柔陪你度過
你聽我說 你不要這麼做
你不要看著我 說你已經知道怎麼做
你很難受 我願意陪你一起承受
只要你不怕痛 再多坎坷我都陪你走
站在這平衡點 我還是覺得有點危險
或許是看不見 只能夠靠感覺
他不會是個好男人 也不會是個好情人
你對我說 我們只是擦肩而過
好的男人有那麼多 少了他的日子也能過
我不會再讓你寂寞 也不會讓你更難過
你聽我說 要好好學著去生活
就算未來有多少錯 至少還有我的問候 我的溫柔陪你度過
他不會是個好男人 也不會是個好情人
你對我說 我們只是擦肩而過
好的男人有那麼多 少了他的日子也能過
我不會再讓你寂寞 也不會讓你更難過
你聽我說 要好好學著去生活
就算未來有多少錯 至少還有我的問候 我的溫柔陪你度過
haha what a song and lyrics.. sometimes i wonder.. am i still thinking about it somehow some way? haven't i gotten over it? and moved on many times? ha.. i listen to this song sometimes and somehow tears just drip out.. i wondered why.. is it me or is the song just very touching. ha.... so well ya.. i have many song craves now..
had outing today with group of frens.. at Seoul Garden for $30/person which could have been $27 but nvm... it was fun... i love my new Slim Jeans i bought yesterday.. although still getting used to it.. but i think i'm fine with it..
haha had a looong chat with xueqi on the phone.. talked lots of stuffs.. ranging from happenings and frens and events and ghosts ha... talked till 5am+... amused i actually did that..
we're in mid march now and April is coming.. what am i to do on April the 3rd.. should i say something? or forget that i know what day it is..
Anyway.. i have lots of things i need to settle ASAP.. been pushing things back for very long already.. time to get somethings DONE....
Posted by wJ at 11:04 PM
Tuesday, March 11, 2008
right.. so things have been going in and out in and out.. pretty much a lot happened on that Sunday =).. my prophecy came true thats one.. and i FINALLY got my phone changed.. soo happy.. i'm addicted to my phone now.. ha.. i love to slide it and watch it ring.. so ya Sunday came and left pretty fast.. Monday was rather fast i can say.. was just smsing xq during my day.. and playing with all the new games i downloaded into my phone.. haha.. my phone is NEVER boring..
Tuesday came.. and omg.. it was lesson day and it was 12pm.. i never have lesson so early cos my mind will still be in Zzz mode.. so i got there was like omg.. i'm there.. of cos during the whole journey i was listening to the Radio till i got into the train station where i switched to my MP3.. haha.. i feel so compelled to sing along and i actually wanted to dance along with the music..but haha i'm in public so had to self restrain.. so as i was saying.. i was at sam's place.. and jeez.. we started wrapping the pipas and everything and send it to Singapore Post.. and it had to RAIN... sigh.. we sent it and wa la.. we're done.. and decided to buy lunch back... bought water table crackers and cheese and stuffs.. but in the end i never ate anything ha.. oh wells.. i didn't pay for it.. don't see why i should eat any of it.. and i also had my passport size photo done.. so yay.. can submit my Lasalle application already.. right.. tomorrow is the release yourself day.. haha.. wonder what we going to do.. catch a movie or sing our hearts out.. haha..
Posted by wJ at 11:49 PM
Sunday, March 9, 2008
haha.. okay low on cash lately.. VERY... but ok i think i can manage my way through somehow.. skip a few meals =)..
went to eat Superdog with xueqi and nic yesterday haha.. omg quite ex.. haha.. but ok it was niice.. then we said a lot of funny stuffs and even had accents added to words to call someone =) ha.. then nic had to go meet his friends so me and xueqi kinda were like.. what to do -_-.
so.. well i thought maybe we could just go Esplanade Library 1st.. which we did. on our way there at the concourse had this father and son guitar show for the Mosaic fest.. wow. the boy is SOOO GOOD with left hand at least.. it's like the left hand we're suppose to have.. when will we get it? ha
then library.. found CDs.. then did Theory with xueqi.. ha.. help her check her work.. circle here circle there ^^ ha... don't worry.. you'll get better.. then i took A LOT of CDs but i can't find the Walk to Remember which the Auntie took to put back in the shelves.. ha. then listen listen listen... wanted to read my Golden Compass book but i took it out and got bored. HA... listen to WoKeYi haha like repeatedly with the other song.. so funny.. then started going about picking random scores.. Savage Garden no Truly Madly Deeply.. found Abba, Nat King Cole (photocopied Unforgettable thanks to xueqi for her handy cashcard which has lesser than $1 haha) then i wanted to find SENS since their scores are freaking hard to get and i don't want to buy it online.. EVEN THEIR SONGS are ALMOST impossible to Download.. must i really buy the CD???.. sigh.. i got Forbidden Love in my computer but no printer..sad..
then well ya.. worked quite long at the Esplanade.. i kind of like the chair haha.. i never sat at a same place for more than 2 hours b4... literally SAT... ok i walked a bit but SAT THERE.. even i can't stay at the same spot at home as long as it is sitting HA..
then well couldn't think of anything to do anymore.. anyway it was already 9pm.. so might as well head home since i have to buy newspaper yet again.. -_-.. went to Kallang..bought the newspaper.. so lucky i was walking to the bus stop.. then i had this gut feeling that 21 is nearby.. i saw this dark bus in front wasn't moving.. i was thinking whats that bus.. didn't actually bother.. then i felt like i'm SOO GONNA REGRET not checking it out.. so i decided to squint at the bus number.. couldn't make out 21 or 31.. but i decided to run after it and it was just at the traffic light which happened to be red.. so funny.. traffic light LITERALLY behind a bus stop.. and by the time i reached the head of the bus stop the bus 21 door opened.. haha. like my gut feelings.. they never fail me.. =p read the newspaper.. so many gory murder and incidents happening in the world and singapore lately.. makes me grossed out reading the tite..
Hong Kong : Man unsatisfied with breakup.. breaks Girl's neck.. (OUCH!!!)
Taiwan : can't remember something about drunk kissing and the woman BIT the man's tongue and out of sheer pain he punched her and knocked her out.. ( GROSS BITE THE TONGUE!! OMG THE BLOOD )
ironic part.. i can watch my own blood but i can't see other people's blood.. i'll just flip.. HAHA... -_-...
1 of the plans to do for the day was pierce me ear! i REALLY WANT TO but i'm damn scared to.. HAHAHAHAH..... . later got HsingHai and BarChorMee.. haha.. i HOPE HOPE WISH PRAY later i can SERIOUSLY change my phone already..
Posted by wJ at 1:03 AM
Monday, March 3, 2008
hmm ok this is not related to the Taiwan story..
i had a dream a few days back.. it was so real.. it was so unexpected.. the event turned out so nicely i felt that warmth of joy.. and during that dream i had all the messages in my phone.. but in my dream i told myself none of this is real.. and i somehow abruptly rubbed off this dream and opened my eyes and check my phone and true enough it wasn't real.. because "your" number is lost and no longer with me.. "your" coldness made me let go during my youthful days.. but now i can't exactly say i regretted doing so.. even so.. i had a strong urge to contact you some way but i gave up remembering i tried that long enough..
anyways.. ha.. had meeting with my friends today.. haha.. glad for them they are all going to the different Polys and they know people in their school or course.. whereas for me.. haha.. i'm entering unknown grounds.. to begin off with.. i haven't even registered.. so well yes.. i must do it ASAP.. no more dragging!!. well i can't say much i just thought ha.. cause all i wanna say is practically the same thing.. just probably with a different source or person..
Now this topic comes to me quite frequently.. do I really want to do professional in Performing still..? i think i really lost that flame for it already.. now all i really want is to get into Lasalle and hope school term comes faster and i can start studying my Arts Management.. in fact i'm so excited to study it.. i keep wondering will I have a giant text book so i can read it and love reading it.. i got such a rush to study for Arts Management.. ha..
argh... tomorrow got lesson.. and must continue using that shadow teaching... i dun like it.. i disagree with it.. i beg to differ with it's theories.. i believe different methods have different effects on different players.. haha.. what a lousy excuse.. but i really prefer the normal human way of practicing.. after all it is human to make mistakes.. isn't it? how to prevent a mistake when you know what you're going to hit and you have a strong feeling for it but it fails you.. you can't just stop because you already felt all your energy and soul into that hit but it just failed you.. it just does.. so how do you then prevent it? assume you're going to be wrong? and just keep stopping?? hmmm probably just something my AcademicKnowledgeless mind cannot analyze..
i hope things go smooth tomorrow.. i really feel very sian going lessons these few months.. i feel i'm not doing much to make it better neither.. so what am i complaining.. -_-... inspiration only lasts for 1 day.. nothing more.. because it is followed by utter disappointment most of the time..
Perhaps i've been thinking too much lately.. a lot of questions popping at me reminding of everything that has been happening.. all those unhappy things that happened and i make silly excuses to make myself believe that it wasn't unhappy.. it was just something i believed i should do for the better of it.. stupid ain't i.. protect something/one else instead of myself.. though true enough i've become rather cold and quick tempered lately.. ha.. can be seen from my gaming mood.. i will kick anyone out of my team at any random point so as long as they provoke me long enough.. =X... all my friends always say.. "haha you lucky Ivan not host.. if not you're out of the game long ago liao.."
do i make the right decisions..? do i dedicate to the right people/things?
will i ever live blissful days?
Posted by wJ at 11:32 PM