Monday, May 26, 2008

you know i think i kinda like Just realised i'm not the supposed me anymore!!.. wheres all my determination gone to.. i give up things now like snap*.. -_-.. thanks sam for like waking me up.. i clearly remember 1 year ago... i was like so upset that i'll never have a chance to aim for conservatory.. and the thing that i kept telling myself and my friends was.. "I really want to do it.. even if i fail i fail happy at least i tried my best"... and now i'm like GIVING THINGS up??? no sense of logic at all.. 0... nada...

what have i been thinking??? 4 years working towards everything and i'm just gonna sit on it like i'm just going to sit on my sand castle???? am i actually even considering the 4 years behind the work??? now i have no idea Whatever that had LOGIC in it to support me pulling out.. Nothing i said had logic to what i've done.. What am i Doing!!... (sorry i'm like flooding myself with myself)...

i not thinking right at all.. and its time to like sit up and think right..(i mean the correct way.. not right as in ->) will i regret pulling out?? truthfully... YES.. so people were suppose to learn from their mistakes... a few screwups and basically you're suppose to not screwup or at least dun screwup as much.. why am i still like repeating history... not making sense.. i think i've mixed too much present with history.. then everything got into like some rojak state.. then everything is WRONG..

i really must Sit down and like focus!!... sort the rojak out like Priorities.. Reminiscing does not equal to Bringing past mistakes along to the present... Nows now.. then is then... later is later.. get it in...

1 person i must apologise to is my good friend Xq.. Sorry... because of my ( i have no idea what to describe this At ALL ) .. u had to listen to me and anything along that line with all the trash and nonsense... when it really isn't your business.. but ure still taking it all in... "Hontoni Gomenasai"

arghh.. right.. set things right.. set things right.. hardwork = results... results = hardwork.. right.. so basically what i should be doing is Working about it and not thinking of what ifs...

Philosophy gone wrong~

Posted by wJ at 11:38 PM