Sunday, June 22, 2008

当年，这时，未来

HsingHai ended today.. new song was like crap.. =P.. can't read the score properly.. well oh well... i still got my 10tickets unbooked... sad.. ha..

tomorrow got to go to school and have a photo taken for my student pass. =) i hope i can get it by the week...

OK WHATEVER IS BELOW IS PROBABLY SOMETHING U DON'T WANT TO READ.. COS ITS LONG ITS RANDOM AND EVEN IF U ASKED WHAT I MEANT? I CAN'T GIVE U AN ANSWER COS I DON'T REMEMBER... =)

当年
around 2 years back.. life was.. crappy in school.. but outside school life was better.. at least i wasn't under a HIT LIST outside school.. and then a song that well perhaps i could say the theme of that year... perhaps this person still remembers.. maybe not.. 2 years of silence..

Keane - Somewhere Only We Know

I walked across an empty land,I knew the pathway like the back of my hand.
I felt the earth beneath my feet,Sat by the river and it made me complete.
Oh, simple thing, where have you gone?I'm getting old and I need something to rely on.
So tell me when you're gonna let me in,I'm getting tired and I need somewhere to begin.

I came across a fallen elm tree,I felt the branches; are they looking at me?
Is this the place we used to love?Is this the place that I've been dreaming of?
Oh, simple thing, where have you gone?I'm getting old and I need something to rely on.
So tell me when you're gonna let me in,I'm getting tired and I need somewhere to begin.

So if you have a minute why don't we go,Talk about it somewhere only we know?
This could be the end of everything.So why don't we go, somewhere only we know,
Somewhere only we know.

ok.. well that year passed not to nicely.. then came 2007... perhaps my silence in my life.. hasn't changed the fact that it makes people hate me.. i am forever silent.. but bearing all of everything inside in silence.. perhaps the worst way to kill yourself.. well.. i remember this very clearly.. the top song played on my list was 安静.. ha..

Jay Chou - 安静

只剩下钢琴陪我谈了一天
睡着的大提琴 安静的旧旧的
我想你已表现的非常明白
我懂我也知道 你没有舍不得

你说你也会难过我不相信
牵着你陪着我 也只是曾经
希望他是真的比我还要爱你
我才会逼自己离开

你要我说多难堪 我根本不想分开
为什么还要我用微笑来带过
我没有这种天份 包容你也接受他
不用担心的太多 我会一直好好过

你已经远远离开 我也会慢慢走开
为什么我连分开都迁就着你
我真的没有天份 安静的没这么快
我会学着放弃你 是因为我太爱你

haha wad a long post... the present.. i have nothing to say.. perhaps i've changed a lot more since the past.. but well life won't change so much anyway.. i'm hearing a song now.. well what does it instill in me? perhaps something nice yet it could also be something not too nice.. depends on it is looked at.. after all everything is based on perspectives and the way we look at things isn't it?.

maybe i will still stay silent and then regret being silent next year or in the time to come.. after all silence was the cause of all my "Happy Endings".. so will i watch what silence can do again? shall i repeat history again and watch what happens and then find that its too late?

perhaps i'm thinking too much yet again.. after i thought of these 2 things out of like the blue..
i have to improve myself and place myself up there so that we can see eye to eye.. only then the gap between will be smaller..
i should just stop and let go... nothing good is ever going to happen.. its just something that will tumble and crash and shatter in time to come..

haa the irony in everything i say.. i counter my own words.. haha.. i still remember someone told me, "i envy your mind.. can take so many emotions at once and still be alive" haha.. can't remember who said that liao. =X .. hmm.. what i want.. what will happen.. what i dream.. what i think.. they all have the "i" inside the phrase or word.. but haha in every phrase there is a "uu" =) ... double u...

sacrifices are made.. whether u like it or not.. it comes and happens.. because it can't be helped.. if theres a need and a must.. i guess when it comes.. i'll then have to cut a piece of me again.. and let it die.. haha.. perhaps i shouldn't have made that wish when i was 14.. to have a heart.. sigh... this song.. i should remove it!!.. it has a nice melody and stuff but the effects on me aren't too nice.. haha -_- . lame.

ok so maybe this is my most lame post ever..

well moving on to part 3.. hmm sigh.. just thought.. Christmas.. how is it going to be this year? same ol same ol? but then thinking if its already Christmas that makes me wonder i should be thinking what happened like 12 days ago.. haha this year.. too many things..

i had a walk earlier.. hmm felt so you know.. relieved just by walking and staring at the blue sky wif puffy clouds... at least it made me not wonder and think.. of cos the cause of it was i almost tripped off the staircase cos i was on an overhead-bridge..

haha after saying so much... i'm still thinking about the silence.. this is such a pain

u can stop reading =) because its just about to get more random and random

b <--> a / a -> c <-->d / a -> e --> f /

-_-.... wad the shit am i typing i also dunno.. haha.. just typing whatever comes to my mind at the moment..

Curiosity kills the cat... in fact killed the cat... not once.. arghH!!

i know u know.. u duno i know u know.. but i know u duno i know u know.. haha mind game..

Posted by wJ at 6:34 PM