Thursday, July 31, 2008

school was supposedly BORING...

god. registration was the sadest thing ever la.. everyone had their envelopes with their Student Portal login BUT i don't have cos mine isn't ready? WTF!!!! then well have goodie bag.. which was donated by Art Friend.. and it was a really small bag.. ok la they cram quite a lot of stuffs inside..

went for the student's briefing? i almost fell asleep cos the chairs were like stiff and everyone was packed inside and close together... barely any living space.. which makes me feel very very uncomfortable.. President was funny.. the DAA representative was like Zzz.. Booooring.. DSS not so bad.. Counseling was hilarious.. then had a cheapskate tour around the school.. then had ""lunch"" in school..they ordered catering and they got their student volunteers to carry silver platters and walk around school serving us >.<

then they even had Milo Truck haha.. then there was a DJ system on the Lucid Fields (Swiss Artists' work) so whole thing was rather cool.. i like the Lucid Fields..sadly i think its going to be torn down soon for a new art.. sad.. should have taken a few pictures of it..

well had introduction to faculty which is Music.. took a more in depth tour of our Music Blocks.. basically our important blocks are G E C.. G for Studios. E for Admin. C for Practice Rooms.. The practice rooms are really really cool.. if i can.. i think i might want to book my 2 hours there everyday.. feel better there than at home practicing.. haha.. and theres a Grand Piano there too and its Air Conditioned.. ok basically the whole building is just really really nice.. though navigating around might get difficult but i'll get used to it if i live in it long enough.. after all only a few places i'll be.. haha library or practice room or classroom.

so we had our first assignment today.. create a music or at least make a form of music with your imagination.. contemporary.. you're given a word.. and you express it in a group.. there was Serenity/Gravity/Friction/Space/Lethargy and my group got Lethargy.. i was really very very tired in that practice room.. 1st i was the guy playing the piano.. everyone thought it was great other than well i didn't want to go on cos i can't notate what i play.. it just comes to me and i play.. so i got this other Singaporean Chinese to play the piano instead since he is in Classical Piano (surely better than me >.<).. ok thank god he was Singaporean and Chinese.. we understood each other rather well.. he understand the music i'm trying to drive at.. how i'm trying to portray this Lethargy.. whereas perhaps the 2 Indonesian girls don't really understand and they stone and whine a lot? the Burmese girl i say i applaud her effort (= ... she knows her voice don't sound very nice but she tried really hard to make nice vocals.. which turned out not bad.. haha.. clap clap.. then we had a addition of a Singaporean Malay, for Popular Piano.. haha.. we were quite a mixed bunch but generally our common is Classical.. i'm Classical Pipa.. which sounds really weird but haha..

What was our comments we received? it was overly dramatic which is rather good.. haha.. thanks to me.. haha just kidding its a collective work effort.. thanks to the help of our seniors also.. haha.. if i remember their names were, Iris, somebody and somebody.. >.<

Guess what... I got to do YOGA... musicians get together doing Yoga.. hmm.. haha.. Lecturers are invited to join us (=

Library was very cool.. i tell you the technology there is like LOVE.. everything is run by Macintosh.. so everywhere you'll just see a MacBook or MacBook Pro or iMac or basically Apple Computers.. well i'm a rather Macintosh pig already though haha.. i use Apple Live Messenger, my web browser is Safari, and i have the iPhone. i want a MacBook.. its like on offer at campus? but it ain't really that cheap.. i was thinking maybe i get a part time job while studying? then collect that money and buy it next year when they have orientation for the new students >.<>

ah yes.. i got this Lasalle Tee also.. its rather nice.. haha just something of that design i've been looking for.. maybe not a very nice color but i still like it.. hah.. madness!!.. After class took a lift down and had a walk then this girl came up to me to talk to me.. haha then she asked me if i know Mr.Teo.. i was like ?? chinese name? she say don't have.. its Mr Shane Thio.. i was like ohhhh.. haha.. omg la..she is Shane Thio's student.. so cool.. and she is playing Classical Piano also.. err.. duh~.. haha

now for the bad crap that happened. I didn't realize my LIBRARY BOOKS WERE DUE YESTERDAY!!... i thought was today.. then after school can go drop in.. but they were yesterday.. NLB PLEASE DON'T FINE ME A PENALTY!!...

Right.. Monday start school liao.. and i don't have my timetable.. this sucks.. !! i hate you ITC!!... i have a Personal Vendetta against you.. or is it DAA.. surely not DSS they so nice to me >.<>

Anyways yea.. never mentioned.. yesterday while i was at High Street i saw a group of this Green.. sigh.. its a lasting irritation that i get affected seeing it.. -_- .. then have to keep reminding myself its nobody's fault.. everything just happened for a better future.. if everything was meant to be then it will patch up somehow..

anyway back to Lasalle.. haha argh!!.. wanted to get the guy i worked with his HP number so you know can meet b4 going for class on Monday.. but aiya.. nvm.. i can do this myself.. 10am H302.. at least i tried being sociable today ok.. and very not anti-social.. other than i don't talk unless you talk to me.. haha.. >.> well my class is generally populated with international students.. so.. ha good luck to me.. so sad.. no Westerners.. all in Theatre. DAMNIT.. i should have went for Theatre Foundation.. >.<

my oh my.. i'm actually getting excited to commence studying.. haha.. wait till real work comes.. i'd probably be here complaining how stressed and tired i am.. =P.. exams in november.. sian.. nvm.. i just need to plan and plot my days properly (=

there was something in that space.. but guess i'll never have the guts to post it.. anyway.. yes i'm very tired now..

signing out!

Posted by wJ at 11:14 PM

OHIO GOZAIMASU!!

haha.. ok wow.. up and refreshing.. guess what having Orientation later.. then i think i'll get to see my classmates.. VERY INTERESTING... although i got this like premonition i'm going to be like a pariah again.. exiled.. T.T but i will try my best to fit in.. somehow..

anyway.. headed down to NAC earlier.. to submit my application.. omg la so malu.. hand her the whole set liao.. then i asked to borrow a pen so i can make an edit i forgot about.. the song composer.. >.> ... MALU!!!... saw some applicants there also.. geez.. its soo troublesome to get to NAC.. gotta get a Visitor's Pass 1st before you enter the lifts.. -_-

Orientation promises FUN.. i hope it is.. or i'll be rather demoralized.. haha.. so i must prepare pencils, markers, color pencils (which i never have and never will).. haha.. i think the only thing that still will interest me is meeting my classmates and.... i dunno.. SHIT now that i'm here.. WHAT TO WEAR TOMORROW!!!..

anyway some pics for update

THE SINGAPORE FLYER.. looks pretty from this angle

The rare occasions you find me leaving the house after 8pm

Posted by wJ at 12:01 AM

Tuesday, July 29, 2008

updates updates updates..

Well.. theory retest was better but still screwy.. sigh.. i was aiming for something so high.. haha.. ok fine.. no harm done.. just a test..

Sunday was like killer tiring.. spent whole buying goods for my dad.. which requires a lot of travelling... so spent a lot of time on the road..which led to super lethargicness(isn't an english word) then well.. think think think.. did a lot of life thinking.. haha.. then well yes.. so more changes have been brought about.. met the 2 sisters at Singpost.. then well in a way crapped with them haha.. went to Coffee Bean & Tea Leaf for my coffee.. was really like Zzzz... i had almost close to bloodshot eyes.. "haha mangekyo sharingan"...

Monday... well.. really was rather boring.. spent most of the day doing house chores.. -_-... and for some apparent reason my mood was foul like hell.. snappy and very very lightning tempered.. all i felt was annoyance, irritation, and FLAME!!.. sigh.. sometimes to be too direct people don't want to hear it.. -_-... well all i can say is.. whether is it now? or later? its still going to happen one day.. why? cos i know best why.. and when i know best why? its definitely going to happen.. so don't put yourself on the spot for me.. its not worth it.. so well.. i don't know.. maybe doing what i did last year was a wrong move i made.. i should have let it end there.. anyway... thanks xq for talking some sense to me yesterday..haha.. released a large fraction of that tension i had.. it was all just FLAME!!.. haha

Tuesday... hectic.. woke up quite early.. haha was BUZZED AWAKE.. for some reason.. my phone keeps ringing.. i had like 8 messages... i was like ARGH!!!.. quit ringing.. then ate breakfast and rushed down to SP.. then met xq and went Sam's house to settle admin stuffs.. haha.. finally school is gonna start on Monday.. i'll be rather amused.. then well today is really another really really HOT day.. and just not too long ago i thought wow.. its Autumn early this year.. who knows.. the following days are just SCORCHING HOT SUMMER DAYS... sadly our winter is just rain.. rain rain rain.. haha..

considering a makeover.. sigh cut my hair.. sniff*.. ok i'm quite sick of it in a way.. but haha.. i never got to keep long hair before.. THANKS TO 10 YEARS OF ACS TRADITION.. and the traditional ways of life that is being emphasized at home.. probably thats what made me such a traditional person also.. O_o.. haha.. i still remember.. for Oral exam.. i was asked on like some question about Teens dating.. then i gave like the very political correct answer and very VERY traditional.. "teens should focus on their goals and dreams and studies 1st b4 settling into a relationship.. because relationships are unstable and one wrong move it could simply wave you off.. resulting in bad academics and etc etc etc.." then my teacher comment me very old fashion (all these was in chinese)... ironic haha.. i say all these but.. >.> haha.. back to main topic.. should i really cut my hair? i mean if i do what am i gonna make it like.. i don't want to look like my schooling days.. its a horror looking at the mirror..

hmm.. my brother will be leaving for Hong Kong for 2 years in like another 2 weeks or so.. don't know what to feel haha.. sad? not really.. barely a bond between us.. and besides.. he is never home also.. happy? sounds rather evil.. your own brother is leaving for 2 years and you're HAPPY?? omg.. see dilema.. if he is gone.. leaves me 1 xtra room to cram in.. haha.. i prefer his.. so much freaking bigger than mine!.. and the internet is there.. SMILE!.. haa hope he'll be a nice guy and mail money back to me.. (in my dreams.. haha)..

OH yes.. the most interesting topic.. when i turn 18 next year? I'm gonna make myself take driving!.. wheee.. haha.. since the family car won't be used anymore.. since the MAIN DRIVER is going to hong kong for 2 years.. haha i shall take ownership of the car.. BUT the petrol WILL NOT BE PAID BY ME!!!.. yaay.. can imagine myself driving.. actually can't.. since i have large amount of fear of roads and speed lately.. haha. i might be like those turtles at the side of the street.. moving at 20km/h.. haha.. SAFE AND NOT SORRY!!.. >.>

yes ok i've typed quite a lot.. for like the past half and hour.. O_o. haha kk signing off

NITES..

Posted by wJ at 11:53 PM

Saturday, July 26, 2008

right been some time since i last clicked publish post..

well.. the week went well.. maybe cos i got a new perception of taking things and etc etc.. went out quite a lot lately.. resulted in my low cash at e moment.. especially wednesday.. i spent like $30+ on music stuffs and travelling 1 eclipse (=

well the eclipse was suppose to be for the sugar but hey hey.. its Sugarfree.. haha.. other than it contains Sugar Alcohol which i have no idea what that is.. probably just some compound that makes it sweet mint but isn't exactly sugar.. well mint is mint..

Thursday was lesson... rather fun i suppose.. haha.. found new spirit, new aim, new focus.. now all that is all the Good Things.. haha.. well supposedly the day i 1st entered Holland Village also >.> .. haha.. got kinda lost then had to call my friend up and scream at e phone where am i.. due to bad communication and unknown directions.. i asked the bus driver and hey.. i asked just in time.. my stop is the next stop.. hahaha..

for like some time i always liked cars due to their exterior design.. like a Mazda RX-8... very very attracting design to me.. haha.. but on this day.. the interior is also a wow now.. haha.. OMG Jiwei's car sooo nice!!... haha..

Friday.. OMG let me warn all you unweary people who will be scammed by the MEDIA.. NEVER BELIEVE THE FOOD FESTIVALS!!.. anyway its ending.. the Taiwanese Eatery Lane was opened at Parco from 21st July till the 27th which is tomorrow... DO NOT BOTHER GOING!... why? simply because it SUCKS!.. it's like a grand scam.. RioRio the Sausage Stall ISN'T TAIWANESE and it can be found at the basement of Bugis Junction!!.. and there were lots more other stalls that were barely Taiwanese in fact they were all LOCAL!!... or at least found elsewhere on local grounds.. soo.. tried the yam ball desert which i had at JiuFen( 9 parts haha) in Taiwan.. damnit.. this one is like soo.. -_-.... shall not comment more.. anyway.. just to say.. if you're curious and thought maybe.. wow.. this is soo interesting? don't be scammed.. haha (i was T.T)

then my mum say she want to go back Taiwan again.. i'm like Yaaay!... haha.. why do i want to go there? i have no idea.. cos i like the environment perhaps.. but from what i'm guessing? i'll probably have to find a friend again.. lest i get very crappy rooms.. !!!.. no idea.. see how things goes.. (=

Arghhh.. later got Theory Re-Exam... and i failed the previous one.. (wondering how still.. so positive about all my answers) and i don't care... this time i'm getting at least merit!!!... i studied for it.. !!!!.. Accicatura etc etc etc...

till then.. (=

signed off..

Posted by wJ at 1:27 PM

Monday, July 21, 2008

我对不起了我周围的每一个人。我也对不起了自己，为了一个很傻很傻的事。我出卖了友情我也出卖了自己。这几天几夜都很难收，生活在一片谎言。说了慌话就需要在讲多一个谎言来盖第一个谎言。

我不懂的珍惜，我多么想真心的向每个人抱歉。希望每个人都会原谅我。我真的觉得很遗憾。我只想真正的说“对不起”。我不想抛弃友情，这几天虽然什么都没说。但这是我真正的第一次感觉那种寂寞。虽然人是还在但感觉已经不一样。

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a weird event..

@:你在哭吗？

#: 有吗? 没有啊。。

@: 明明就是在哭吗，你看眼睛都红了，眼睛还掉着眼泪。发生了什么事?

#: 没事没事，可能最近天气一只下雨眼睛就像天一样的下点雨 (=

@: 你该不会是因为你失恋了吧?

#: 没恋爱过怎么会失恋?哈哈。想太多了吧你。
第一次是个误会，第二次是个意外，第三次是悲哀，我还会想去面对第四次吗?
反正我手上还有很多很重要的事情搞现。

@: 话也不能说到这样吗。。谁知?可能第四次是幸福?

#: 哈哈哈，那是笑话吧? 哈。。

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you know.. i think i've finally finally understand.. ok fine maybe i took rather long.. but i think i do now.. and well for me to really get this realisation.. haha ok don't know why but just rather happy it turned out this way.. that i think i finally realised.. unless i didn't.. hopefully not.. anyways.. haha shan't say now.. just incase its wrong.. but if i'm correct in it.. then there should be changes again.. 4 people to thank for helping out in this process for the past few days.. and thanks to Matt for like listening to everything i've said for like the past 2 weeks.. haha.. felt really good to say stuffs and make jokes of it and laugh it off. ok not they were all really that funny.. but ahh we know we know.. haha so whos left on the Bachelor's Party? haha since Rabbit can't exactly be considered in now.. haha..
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anyway.. yes.. today is a rather good day.. at least productive.. did some real thinking.. instead of stoning... realised been foolishly living a life that was left not here not there since 2 years ago.. haha.. because of 1 person.. i ruined quite a lot during that 2 years huh.. my life, my studies, my hobbies.. all died because i was living everyday like a dead person.. well all that WILL change.. and well i'm also rather sick of the current me.. indecisive, goes round in circles, barely gets to the point, and living a life that i don't own..

hmm really.. things to change and things to work on.. with this as a mark of the Starting day.. "Let the Changing begin!" haha.. ok i know it won't be easy.. but its for the better.. and i'm gonna work on it..

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Posted by wJ at 10:22 AM

Sunday, July 20, 2008

hmm

so conclusion i probably got low blood sugar, and the rest are just bull answers.. so i must have a balance of sugar T.T but i don't like eating sweet stuffs since.. ah well.. you know you know.. that time.. after which Eclairs have been banned from my diet also.. maybe i'm being a little extreme with my eating over something like this.. its a disorder.. haha

crossed the zebra crossing.. haha Oh My.. please don't tell me i got trauma of crossing the Zebra Crossing.. haha.. its freaky.. to be crossing and the thing u see along the road is a car coming at you and he doesn't look like he is gonna slow down.. scaary.. well that almost happened on Friday nite.. 2 sports car just zoomed past.. i was like O.o i'm still alive.. phew*.. ha

went to Goldenmile plaza for dinner today.. had the same ol same ol.. ok maybe not so similar.. i had a cup of lime juice and a bowl of beef noodles which i barely touched... T.T bad appetite..

ok maybe i need help.. haha..

Posted by wJ at 8:30 PM

WeiJie is horribly ill now.. appetite is worst than ever.. i've reduced to eating porridge or at least 1 spoon of it and i'm done.. but not to worry.. i'm sure i'll be fine after a few days..

anyways back to practice.. something i shouldn't neglect... 2 things to settle today.. memorising and familiarising for Dream..

see yall later..

Posted by wJ at 12:41 PM

Saturday, July 19, 2008

hmm went to Old Airport FC to eat dinner.. was deciding Bugis? City Hall? Kallang? Boon Keng is never open in the night.. then well the buses that come are those that say go Old Airport.. so i did.. cos 21 1st came.. i was like.. naa.. then it came again.. so i was like.. fiine.. i'll board it.. theni alighted.. then thinking eat at Kallang? (which i don't think is nice) or switch bus to somewhere else.. then the buses came in this order.. 31 33 31 32... so i was like fiine.. board 32.. since even if i take 11 and go KLP i also wouldn't know what i'm going to eat there.. haa

then i met seryang there for a moment haha.. and he recommended me the Thai food.. which i finally decided to have.. after like walking around the FC like 3 rounds?.. haha... had Pineapple Rice and Mango Salad.. (not realising its $4 each..) then waited and waited and mango salad came 1st.. 1st impression. WOW.. ok haven't eaten such a mango salad since that stall at Meridian closed down.. then waited and waited and waited.. omg its really rather long haha.. then the rice came.. well and there i see chicken.. i was like gosh.. noooo.. haha.. i think i became like an elderly there.. i took about 1hour++++ to finish eating.. haha.. argh!!.. bad appetite.. always like this.. at least i got a good starters which is mango salad.. and desert was mango salad.. cos i wasn't done with it.. haha.. $8 dinner.. well considering if i went somewhere else. i'll probably spend somewhere the same for something less fulfilling.. haha.. after i was done i went walking around the FC again looking for soy milk..haha.. Peak hours are the worst timing to try and locate items in the multitudes of stalls.. haha...

scary part..while eating.. i saw this tall squarish figure.. with that bronze tinted skin.. in that green that it slightly lighter than the green that i get from an Anion(or was it Cation or am i even spelling them right anymore? haha) test colored shirt.. and almost similar colored pants... and it was the moment i bit into the pineapple.. 1st reaction was OMG this shouldn't be real.. then when that person turned around.. i saw that "shonen" smile.. and that same hairdo.. but thankfully its not the person i thought it would be.. haha silly.. logic would tell me i won't see that person here.. haha.. West and East.. 2 extreme areas.. ha.. hahaa ok trauma... then i started fearing of eating the pineapple again.. haha.. it was really scaa-aary..

then i walked around and then i saw my uncle.. with someone else.. i was like hmmmm... never seen her before.. hmmm... oh well shall not bother.. wanted to say hi to him.. but from the looks of it he doesn't remember me.. T.T Nobody remembers me.... because my looks changed a lot since last year.. haha.. i'm white BUT NOT ON DRUGS!!!!

then well... the sad part came.. it rained.. so i was like... crap.. haaha oh heck.. took a walk around the neighbourhood.. if i remember correctly its called The Pine? walked 2 rounds and the rain never stopped.. so i went to NTUC and see if theres anything interesting to buy... turned out i bought nothing still haha.. then walked 1 more round inside that cluster of blocks.. haha then decided i shall just sit at some bench while waiting for the rain to die.. well.. the central area seems occupied.. so i kinda like walked all the way to the block opposite the carpark.. i believe its 49.. and found this wooden painted bench/chair whatever haha.. and sat there... plugged in my iPhone/Pod.. and just stoned there.. ok i took a few pics.. out of randomness.. then i got really tired.. and somehow i fell asleep!!!!!! the last thing i remembered hearing was 星期六深夜, 我想起了你.. and hahaha..from there i believed i fell asleep.. it was rather chilly.. then felt this warm feeling while thinking of something haa.. when i woke up.. i was like oh gosh.. i really slept.. was i robbed? haha.. well everything is still with me.. and guess the time? it was already 9+pm..

yaay the rain stopped.. so i stood up was feeling rather groggy since it was a rather abrupt way of waking up.. then made my way across the overhead bridge and 31 came just on time.. dragged myself home from the bus stop i alighted.. (although i almost fell asleep in the bus yet again).. ok.. so tonite was rather interesting.. i actually can fall asleep in public areas.. i've always thought how on Earth is it possible for people to sleep on the Public bus alone!.. u'll miss your stop or something.. and here i am.. having 1st hand experience sleeping at a void deck.. O_o thinking about it.. haha must be pretty unglam.. people might have been thinking i was like thrown out of the house or something? haha.. glad that at least i woke up 9+ and not 10+.. haha.. wonder what i'll say if someone like found me and ask me why am i here.. haha..>.> no comment.. i was just sheltering from rain ...

tiiredd.. sign off >.<

Posted by wJ at 10:14 PM

Yesterday spent the day reading my book.. Due on 31st July.. i don't think i'll finish the 2nd book in time..

watched Nanyang Girls CO Concert.. haha interesting.. "Libertango"... went to search it up.. and i found Yo-Yo Ma's version.. and its really like wow.. i prefer this version =P.. funny part upon entering the hall.. saw this man carrying like 3 boxes from Pizza Hut ranging from large,regular and personal size.. haha.. that was like soo 夸张..

haha still rather tired from the 3 hours of sitting in that hall.. never sit for such a long concert b4 haha.. anyways Enjoy this.. (=

hmm i still think yo-yo ma sounds very very nice.. haha..

feeling sleepy.. maybe going back to sleep again =P

Posted by wJ at 3:46 PM

Thursday, July 17, 2008

oh god.. why everyone so much faith in me. haha now i'm scared to Fail.. haha..

Wednesday... can't remember how my day went exactly.. oh yes.. practice practice practice... but i guess it was called dead practice.. so i wasted it.. Crap..

Today.. went for lesson in the morning.. and yes its just called STIFF, will try to fix it asap.. after that? OMG.. next thursday having lesson.. with another teacher.. omg this time i'll really die.. no shouldn't say that.. i shall be prepared for it.. i WILL practice for it thus being prepared.. geez.. 1st training is to sit on a chair and not move and concentrate for 2hours.. discipline training.. ahhh... God save me..

now i regret having this thing called CRITICAL moment.. argh!!... but once its over in a good way.. i'm fine i hope.. i shall get this over with.. can't let it pull me too long right? haha... after all.. soo many (to me at least) people got faith in me. why should i not have faith in myself..

ok so i spent my remaining of the morning/noon at Bedok.. thinking.. Where do i want to go today to let my mind wander and do whatever it feels like doing haha.. was thinking of going to visit a school i haven't been for a long time.. but naa.. it'll feel weird.. then 2nd option was to go take a walk around clark quay or raffles.. but the weather wasn't suited for taking a nice stroll with a heavy pipa on your back.. so shall consider lunch 1st.. where do i wanna eat.. Bedok? or take 31 home... and on e way i can alight at Parkway or Old Airport. well amazingly while thinking.. i ended up sitting in McDonald at Bedok.. then it started pouring.. ok lucky i'm in shelter.. haha

then met xueqi after a while.. was just sitting there eating and watching Youtube shows.. trying to find a something.. then we crap a bit.. then left cos she had to go to school.. Sooo whats my travelling plan.. 31 home? then was reminded.. i need to buy 4th string.. cos it snapped. and i used 3rd to replace 4th and now my qin sounds like Shiiiitt.. haha.. wad a waste of 3rd string.. then somehow i ended up going to dover instead and went to SP with xueqi.. and better still some mechanical lab.. thus i had to wear this full lab suit.. which i swear is very very inconvenient.. and sat there for? 3+ hours.. doing almost nothing.. OMG!!...

then went to Foodcourt 4 for Dinner... cheap it is.. hah.. well the desert auntie has very bad temper.. =X

then went to SP Library and camp there till like 8.30 cos its closed at 9.. so they wrap up their project for the day.. i wrap up my MSNing for the time being.. haha..

took 33 to Bugis.. bought newspaper stroll around Junction for a while and headed for home..
tomorrow is NYCO Concert... shall go and rest now..

Posted by wJ at 11:58 PM

Tuesday, July 15, 2008

feeling.. very much pathetic.. pathetic pathetic pathetic... it all seems so hopeless yet there might just be.. and the outcome lies on how i want it to be ( in a way )..

supposedly a feeling that gave the burst i needed came.. but it died off when reality came right smack in the face.. more disheartening news.. though i wished it wasn't real.. but it is.. and i must face the fact.. its another slap called F again.. totally pathetic right now... people affected because of me.. because i couldn't find that piece of Ivan.. which is leading to my disastrous downfall.. i feel so guilty.. i wished it all didn't happen... i really wished all these didn't have to happen.. i want time to stop and go back so badly now.. not for myself but for other people..

a feeling a pure pathetic-ness i can't explain what's it like.. i wish i could do a better job..

i hope i'll can really pull through this critical moment.. and then survive through all the way till Mid December.. right now.. all i can do... is to garner all my fighting spirit and start working things back to the way they were suppose to be..

jy to me..

Posted by wJ at 11:29 PM

Sunday, July 13, 2008

baack from Concert.. haha.. what a week.

Friday had the last nite rehearsal at HsingHai.. haha..was rather tired by the end of it... lazy go chase people whether they watching or not.. haha

Saturday was OMG!!!! i was so stressed i couldn't live life properly for a moment at all haha.. cos i was going to look for my HsingHai tickets.. to my horror.. i lost it!!.. i was like OMG!! they're gonna kill me.. then very stress then left the house very early..

had lesson in e noon.. ok i know a lot more of what to do.. i will definitely do something about it.. then ate LJS and choing to Ben's house for theory to find out he isn't home yet.. haha... then we play with ah boy through the door.. haha.. laame but haha.. then had our theory ""Exam"" haha.. we were sooo "tense" hah (as if) then ah boy very cute... jump on the sofa and started digging... starting to assume he isn't a dog but a rabbit hahha.. always so hyper..

then went Bugis to eat ice-cream.. thought there was Andersons there but we found Venezia instead but it wasn't that bad neither la.. haha.. then took 133 to boon keng. bought a chocolate waffle and headed home.. and continue my quest to find the tickets.. still can't find then call Zhong Hui to tell her 1st.. hah.. thankfully she very nice.. tell me don't panic.. slowly look for it.. i might just remember where i stuffed it. haha... but still can't find it in the end..

then this morning came so fast.. i didn't even feel like waking up.. haha ok i was woken up by an sms.. haha.. then i went to increase the volume of the radio from 0 again to try and keep myself awake.. haha..

then drag time till 11+ then decided to bathe and rush down to HsingHai to collect the pipa stands.. (lol i hope they look cool on stage =P) haha... then met xiaowen and daijun at Bugis to have ""lunch"" which consisted of seoul street food and Sweet Talk.. haha.. dots.. then we went down to SCH.. and xueqi came in not long after us. haha

Rehearsal was hahha.. my 公主 part i missed the note.. haha... then i also got play wrong frets for certain songs haha..

then Dinner!!.. haha mine was Egg, Fried Chicken, Curry Veg and Veg rice.. haha..

then went to change and stuff and put on whatever i need to and wore the coat.. haha i'm shocked by my own display.. haha... then i start walking around promoting iPhone cos i look like i'm doing a commercial advertising.. haha!!.. then went to 2nd level to see whos here... of cos backstage i saw someone i didn't wana see..!!! irritating... everytime see me ask stupid qns.. oh well.. he is my elder.. i must give him that certain level of respect at least.. then stood at 2nd level and watch people enter SCH.. lol then went up to the counter and OMG so many people.. haha then went into stage.. then they say when u go back in cannot come out.. i was so sad. haha i'm LOCKED IN noooooo!!!... haha 无聊 i know..

then yay show time.. haha we were rather stressed since we not carrying our pipa in cos its already outside on the stands... haha no sense of security.. =P then went out hey not bad la.. our ticket sales not bad.. (i should know best since i actually REALLY did a PROMOTION for my tickets... lol HsingHai people say i very 伟大 hahaa..) oh well.. haha glad 公主 was ok i think... not sure =P.. then went through the songs till intermission yay... went out to meet chunmei then talk to her till the bell rang.. then went back in... wanted to bring some bread in but then the ushers stop me.. SAAD!!.. lol..

then 2nd part of show came... and xueqi did her 霓裳曲.. yay clap clap.. kudos to you =) haha... audience response quite shocking ba.. ha.. they actually clap in beat for encore... sadly our encore too fast liao. haha.. and there was only 1 song.. saad.. haha oh well it was fun..

after packed everything and settled everything.. went to Bugis with xueqi and chunmei eat KFC lol.. then head home.. then i saw ah chun on the bus.. hahaha so funny.. then alighted on my bus stop. the most sadest thing happened.. i was crossing the overhead bridge and suddenly the rain started pouring on me.. O_O... evil sky.. haha.. couldn't u have waited for me to get home b4 raining.. now no more rain liao sian.. i think i'm falling sick.. haha expose to the heat from this afternoon thanks to the rain!!.. now i'm slightly feverish. =P

signing out