Tuesday, July 15, 2008
feeling.. very much pathetic.. pathetic pathetic pathetic... it all seems so hopeless yet there might just be.. and the outcome lies on how i want it to be ( in a way )..
supposedly a feeling that gave the burst i needed came.. but it died off when reality came right smack in the face.. more disheartening news.. though i wished it wasn't real.. but it is.. and i must face the fact.. its another slap called
F again.. totally pathetic right now... people affected because of me.. because i couldn't find that
piece of Ivan.. which is leading to my disastrous downfall.. i feel so guilty.. i wished it all didn't happen... i really wished all these didn't have to happen.. i want time to stop and go back so badly now.. not for myself but for other people..
a feeling a pure pathetic-ness i can't explain what's it like.. i wish i could do a better job..
i hope i'll can really pull through this
critical moment.. and then survive through all the way till Mid December.. right now.. all i can do... is to garner all my fighting spirit and start working things back to the way they were suppose to be..
jy to me..
Posted by wJ at 11:29 PM