Monday, July 21, 2008
我对不起了我周围的每一个人。我也对不起了自己，为了一个很傻很傻的事。我出卖了友情我也出卖了自己。这几天几夜都很难收，生活在一片谎言。说了慌话就需要在讲多一个谎言来盖第一个谎言。
我不懂的珍惜，我多么想真心的向每个人抱歉。希望每个人都会原谅我。我真的觉得很遗憾。我只想真正的说“对不起”。我不想抛弃友情，这几天虽然什么都没说。但这是我真正的第一次感觉那种寂寞。虽然人是还在但感觉已经不一样。
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a weird event..
@:你在哭吗？#: 有吗? 没有啊。。@: 明明就是在哭吗，你看眼睛都红了，眼睛还掉着眼泪。发生了什么事?#: 没事没事，可能最近天气一只下雨眼睛就像天一样的下点雨 (=@: 你该不会是因为你失恋了吧?#: 没恋爱过怎么会失恋?哈哈。想太多了吧你。第一次是个误会，第二次是个意外，第三次是悲哀，我还会想去面对第四次吗?
反正我手上还有很多很重要的事情搞现。@: 话也不能说到这样吗。。谁知?可能第四次是幸福?#: 哈哈哈，那是笑话吧? 哈。。-------------------------------------------------------------
you know.. i think i've finally finally understand.. ok fine maybe i took rather long.. but i think i do now.. and well for me to really get this realisation.. haha ok don't know why but just rather happy it turned out this way.. that i think i finally realised.. unless i didn't.. hopefully not.. anyways.. haha shan't say now.. just incase its wrong.. but if i'm correct in it.. then there should be changes again.. 4 people to thank for helping out in this process for the past few days.. and thanks to Matt for like listening to everything i've said for like the past 2 weeks.. haha.. felt really good to say stuffs and make jokes of it and laugh it off. ok not they were all really that funny.. but ahh we know we know.. haha so whos left on the Bachelor's Party? haha since Rabbit can't exactly be considered in now.. haha..
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anyway.. yes.. today is a rather good day.. at least productive.. did some real thinking.. instead of stoning... realised been foolishly living a life that was left not here not there since 2 years ago.. haha.. because of 1 person.. i ruined quite a lot during that 2 years huh.. my life, my studies, my hobbies.. all died because i was living everyday like a dead person.. well all that WILL change.. and well i'm also rather sick of the current me.. indecisive, goes round in circles, barely gets to the point, and living a life that i don't own..
hmm really.. things to change and things to work on.. with this as a mark of the Starting day.. "Let the Changing begin!" haha.. ok i know it won't be easy.. but its for the better.. and i'm gonna work on it..
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Posted by wJ at 10:22 AM