Sunday, August 31, 2008
Utterly Random
gosh ok its been about a week.well.. quite a lot happened.. that i don't think i can remember all.. well Gamelan last friday was the usual Zzz... and it was pouring so i got drenched.. Theory class was on analysis on this German songs for vocal... i think its quite nice.. haha.. wonder if i can find em online..haha
weekends just as tiring as usual. met bryan, mel, rx, sean for dinner on Sunday.. went to Japanese Village(or wadeva u call it becos of its 99c sushi!!! -_-), well didn't eat anything there. then went off with bryan to collect his stuff in hope that the stall was still open.. found out it was a pushcart and it was closed already... so went to watch him play his favourite game PARA PARA... scored 4th in the whole system.. wow claps*... rare that i see guys dancing to the machine.. then we went to Xin Wang to eat Mango Ice... and of cos it is loved.. haha.. BEST DESSERT... haa.. didn't feel like going home then.. so nice of him to accompany me.. haha.. well supposedly went to his house to "play" didn't do much anyways.. just sat and rot infront of MSN.. then stayed too long bus services all died.. i stayed over at his place.. woke up next morning quite zombified since i barely slept.. spent most of the night/morning smsing away till i somehow thawed and the temperature change made me fall asleep.. then went to bugis with him.. and he went to school for mainstudy i went home to rearrange myself..
Monday already.. and FINALLY we had Rhythm Ensemble.. its rather like Brazillian, erm.. fun i wouldn't say it is.. i feel rather pathetic playing whatever i'm playing.. maybe because i'm not a very percussive or energetic/outgoing person.. then had Keyboard class with Philip again.. so hard la.. I WANNA TRANSER BACK TO ADRAIN!!!!!....
Tuesday was like wow... cos supposedly we gonna rehearse on Monday for Space but we didn't!! so good right? and creative workshop was postponed to wednesday but since we have Theatre to watch on Wednesday it was cancelled. and the following week also no class cos of something.. so posted 2 weeks later.. YES dunid to care about my group.. so went to school for Choir only.. so LAME.. haha but ok la.. then went to Dhoby Gauht with Anne,Edmund & Mel and """shopped""" well thats where i bought the pathetic earrings.. and Experimented with it..
well yea.. now u see it.. of cos i took it off after wearing it to Group Ensemble and Theatre on Wednesday... CANNOT BE WORN LONG TERM.. cos it FREAKING HURTS!!!...
Thursday, What another day.. well i spent $10 on useless books.. I'M SORRY WALLET... and well class is rather fun since we use laptop to type history notes and on the side using internet in class surfing websites and stuff.. hahaha Felix's class was boring as usual. i still haven't done any of the Journals or even begun starting on my Essay.. i should START working and not being so lax huh~.. then Edmund,Kaiyin,Mel crashed at my place in e evening before we went to Prince of Wales to watch our DEAR FRIENDS perform... but truthfully.. i found my Sangria more interesting than the performance infront.. =P oh yea.. i went back to ACS(BarkerRoad) too, to collect my Graduation Stuffs by MOE.. i swear.. i thought maybe i have a little patriotism for the school but seeing the B!TCH that lived in the English Department? i think i'll never go back anymore.. besides most of my teachers i know all LEFT SCHOOL already.. can guess why.. we all have similar thinkings about the students there.. they all should be hanged on the flag pole.. (=
took some pictures with Mel's macbook.. heres a sample.. i look like those rare species of primapes..
Friday.... Yoga... -_- no comment the stupid back stretching part 2ndpose seriously JUST INJURES ME MORE THAN IT CALMS OR STRETCHES ME... then break till Theory.. SO HARD!!... melody writing.. haven't start also =P then gamelan then home.. i just fell asleep after dinner.. gamelan just tires me out. the sound the music the effect... just so... echoey..
Saturday.. OMG la... went back to sam for lesson.. T.T i deprove so much.. A LOT A LOT A LOT.. ok i shall work on it.. ok so i'm TOTALLY TIRED OUT by now.. and then rushed down to Eunos for theory with ben.. then by the time class ended.. i was said to be haggard.. arghh. do i really look that haggard these days? since i get this question popping like, "are you ok? you look dead/haggard/destroyed/broken."
Sunday a.k.a Today.. OMG! orchestra.. i'm the ONLY PERSON THERE FOR PLUCKED STRINGS B4 LUNCH!!!!! WTH!!!... so stress.. but ok was saved after lunch... then went to dhoby gauht for dinner at Carls Jr.. drank a lot.. and I'M NOT GOING TO EAT SUPERSTAR EVER AGAIN.. its tiring eating my way through.. haha.. now theres a superstar in me and its singing a rock concert with the french fries and onion rings..
TOMORROW IS TEACHERS' DAY.. WISH ALL THE TEACHERS HAPPY TEACHERS' DAY AND WISH THEM MANY JOYFUL DAYS TEACHING IN THE DAYS TO COME..
personal space:
sigh.. dunno whats up lately.. everything so sour again.. i hate this feeling.. its bad for the soul... but i can't help it somehow.. its just there infront of my eyes.. that image.. that picture.. argh!!!.. would it be envy or jealousy.. looking at things from so many perspectives.. i should try to make time my best friend. maybe then as time passes things might look better.. "self denial"... argh.. i dunno.. probably got something to do with me being an Earth Element and a Taurus and my planet is Venus.. lack of Gurantees leading to insecurities.. argh..
must i really open out myself? i don't feel like taking the initiative anymore.. its just disastrous each time it happens.. if that person knows then things will be easier? i don't think so.. i don't know.. i don't even know what to believe or trust.. everything is still very much broken from the past few years.. collectively from broken to shattered and now powdered.. nothing much left..
ARGH what should be done?!!!!!!
SIGNING OFF
Posted by wJ at 11:41 PM
Thursday, August 21, 2008
strange things have been happening.. must be because of the cheesy moon..a failure to understand what is it that rumbles in my mind every moment every day.. every waking moment and even in my dreams.. it all seems so decided yet so blurry and having no ground decision... I feel like it is, yet it might not be.. If it isn't you, then its another..
ok i can understand why its this feeling but.. i don't know.. i shall leave it alone.. things better left to flow on their own.. to abruptly cut the current will result in a not so nice scenario.. if you took the initiative 1st.. then things will probably develop.. oh well.. there is still 1 year or less depending..
Back to something more GROUNDED..
School is fun fun fun.. and rather emo.. haha.. i hate my CW group thats for sure.. so much to an extent that i appear 10mins late and if not everyone is present i'll leave in 5mins.. Choir followed by Choir-ing the Crossing the Rainbow Bridge, followed by Aural lesson.. my voice is a bit tired already.. haha
Gratz to Mel for scoring for O Levels (=
OMG meeting mel tomorrow at the back of e market at 8.30am.. O_o.. i wanna have my McDonald Breakfast.. haa.. and i still need to decide what to wear tomorrow..i think i already did.. haa
Tomorrow.. wonder what kind of day will it be.. still illuminated by the Cheesy Moon?..
Dreams dreams dreams.. what a world is out there in my mind when the physical is silent and quiet..
Posted by wJ at 11:43 PM
Sunday, August 17, 2008
Random Random Rather Random..
Watched Fire last nite.. quite interesting.. at least i had something to write about for my assignment.... yesterday was killed.. suppose to have lesson but had to cancel it. sigh.. December is coming.. watching the concert yesterday sorta made me feel like performing is just such a big thing.. dunno la. its 乱!!! 乱乱乱乱乱乱乱!!... I somehow 期待 exams coming.. sadistic right? only in Week 3 and already 期待 exams.. because Main Study exam is performing.. haha.. sadistic!!..
古道随想 is like so nice... but haha can see its not very easy also.. 火 was rather interesting with its Indian and Chinese mix. at least far better than what i see from my group from last week's assignment for Creative Workshop or "Sparse" where they made Indian music.. and using the Pipa to lead the singer, who I say has rather scary vocals, I don't mean the good scary.. haha.. oh well I learnt not to care too much about the group.. I'll just do my job and get it over and done with, since I don't have any problems making up melodies and harmonies and counter melodies on the spot to match with them. everything they produce are quite simple.. I'll probably take over on Week 7 for Aggression (= ... I strongly believe thats my forte at the moment.. laughs* really got a lot of it now especially when I got to meet the group or come close to any of the members.. got a lot of concepts and ideas already.. I'm READY!..
this was taken after the concert at Xing Wang HK Cafe.. i think this is one of the best sights of me.. and my hair doesn't look red at all.. more like gold..
today went for Orchestra... today i was like completely not stable at all.. my rhythms and counting all wrong... haha.. usually I'm okay.. just today.. hah.. very tipsy.. probably because I never went for rehearsal last week and i've been influenced by the Free Play in Creative workshop where there is no exact rhythm or timing or beat..
Tomorrow school starting later for Rhythm.. playing percussion instruments.. and then having a meeting in between the break before Keyboard skills.. so irritating.. means I can't go and chill with friends.. unless they all having their own group meeting also then nothing to say.. I'll probably be in school early to practice again.. so you can come find me a Block G Level 3 one of the practice rooms (=
Posted by wJ at 9:53 PM
Thursday, August 14, 2008
omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg
I swear i'm mad.. haha.. went to McDonald's with Edmund.. and i didn't actually plan to buy a meal.. but when i saw the Archery Olympics Glass Cup i was like OMG!! i waaant!!.. so i ordered a meal.. and almost died eating it.. haha too many fries.. so full got home still got dinner.. so had to force eat..
Had History today.. 1st time i'm using laptop for School in School.. haha.. laptop didn't survive through History.. it died b4 class ended by 5mins.. which means i lack 5 minutes of notes.. sad.. ha.. Middle Ages.. Ancient Greece and Ancient Rome and etc etc.. tsk tsk.. Bryan you call her a Hippo wearing White Shirt.. haha..
the Curse of the Broken shoes.. haha Mel had hers last week.. and Bryan got his today.. slippers went snap.. poor guy.. Red Ruby lover sia.. haha.. although i have 0 idea what it tastes like anyway.. haha.. wish you early recovery and better comfort with that piercing of yours.. so eerie la!... better don't pierce your tongue..
Had Aural today also.. haha.. am i really that not local? learnt Major 2nd and Major 6th and 7th... now we know how to sing them.. or at least we know methods but actual practical.. err.. haha..
Felix's class was soo booring.. spent like quite some time discussing about a nude art picture.. that was drawn by a Thai guy.. portraying some sort of Cubism art.. then talk about deductive and inductive comments.. like "If the moon was made of green cheese, Mice love cheese, Thus there are mice on the moon." O_o hahaha
tomorrow is Theory test... so not ready.. and Gamelan.. siigh.. and yoga which means very oversize bag..
Disorientating... confusion in thoughts.. what am i really thinking? could it be?
Posted by wJ at 9:23 PM
Tuesday, August 12, 2008
back from Performingmy god.. it felt so good to get my feet out of those shoes.. i'm never wearing them for long term again.. ok anyway.. had choir today.. which was er.. booring.. haha.. it was all about ya... ya1 ya2 ya3 ya4 ya5 ya6 ya7 ya1... then had creative workshop.. performed... yay.. glad i was appreciated by audience.. haha. though i was really heck care already.. since we only rehearsed once.. on friday for like 10mins or so... thanks bryan for the hug/pat (1st time being hugged).. ha.. so crazy la.. everything so slack.. and because i already don't care.. then the idiot with a stench of cigarettes say i'm a role model of relax and take it easy no stress guy.. -_- .. ah well... at least the 2 were scolded for not being serious during performance also... they were laughing which made me feel like wth... here i am.. though i don't care.. but i still put effort in it.. and there they are with don't care and no effort.. -_-... i think it was rather obvious.. that the drums and electric guitar played almost nothing in that whole song..
heard a lot of other works.. think they were rather nice.. except for 1 that had a small jazz piano solo in the middle.. which killed the flavor.. was like eating mango ice-cream then suddenly chocolate comes out instead.. then suddenly back to mango.. hah.. we all got the same idea.. to petit for a group change next semester so we can work with more people.. i agree!!.. haha (escaping my current group =P)
lol.. i have been reminded of my craze of Phantom of e Opera... esp Music of the Night.. woo.. haha... Think of me also very nice.. the rest.. er... =P
Sarcasm is such a lame thing in class.. ha.. stupid AP.. haha.. ask Edmund what instrument in CO he played.. and AP tried to link it to me somehow.. apparently fail.. haha at least he didn't know i used to play cello.. hahah
tomorrow is Michael Corbidge's class again.. woo.. hope its Fun.. and doing something fun... not all games again (= .. i enthu over the play.. =P i don't mind doing part time theatre..!!! hahaha
a combust feeling of mixture of everything and anything.. a reaction..
Posted by wJ at 9:38 PM
Sunday, August 10, 2008
SATURDAY
haha school though tiring but still really horribly hilarious.. Yoga was like superb.. haha.. someone was sleeping and Snoring >.> hah.. ok we're a crazy group.. haa.. "bring your attention to your eyebrows" and i suddenly thought of felix.. hahha...!!!... "focus on your hair" totally reminded me of poor Edmund with his 30mins or so worth of hairdo trying not to squish his precious.. HAHA!!.. the description of Yogic diet was just as funny.. be mindful of what you eat. haha. thats just really funny.. so is it like you think of the Chicken your eating then you eat it.. then while eating you still think of how the chicken feels and its texture and what it is like after its chewed.. etc etc etc etc... Hahaha..
just had main study and theory... and i fell asleep during theory.. for a while at least.. was thinking of Compound Intervals and then felt that blinking should be slower.. and next thing i know my mind was drifting off really very very fast.. so forced myself awake by using 1 hand to keep my eye open.. so i still have like some semi-conscious or something hah..
which reminds me.. i think i'm going to bring my laptop down to school for Soumya's history liao.. cannot imagine myself cramming over the pen just to scribble everything she says and shows.. since i have bad technique with pen holding.. hah.. coming thursday gonna touch on Early Greek Civilization's Music.. and we had already done the topic on the Theatre of Greek Civilization.. its mainly about Tragedies.. and Tragedies are found everywhere during Spring.. haha.. Dionysus fest, the event where people watch plays and lots of em.. Tragedies and Satyr.. Those who worship Dionysus can be pretty scary... haha..
Sunday
went for family lunch at East Coast Park.. Ju Shin Jung.. Korean Restaurant.. omg.. it was rather nice.. other than it was really really really expensive for just 2 seafood pancake and 1 beef and 1 chicken and free flow of side dishes...$130!!!. OMG!!.. by the time got back home just as sleepy as i was b4 i left home though sleeping for like 12hours.. gotta start reading about critical writing so i can start with work...
"ignorance only lasts that long" - Book of Unknowns
Posted by wJ at 5:52 PM
Wednesday, August 6, 2008
ok i know i haven't been blogging or at least updating..well so far school has been up and down.. but i really love the ups.. met more friends.. like Bryan Edmund and gang.. erm.. Cai Yin and Xue Hui if i'm right.. haha
creative workshop.. i don't want to comment already... i'll do what i can do.. and do my best. the rest i really don't want to think.. i'll just you know get my act together and if required bitch my way to get it together for the next 40weeks or so.. Thanks Mel and Edmund and Anne and Xueqi for e support.. so lame la.. tell me 10.30 meet at practice room.. i was there since 9.. practicing my own stuffs.. 10.30 nobody called nobody appeared.. i got a text say delay to 11.. 11am nobody called nobody appeared.. 11.30 i went to visit Hanh next door still nobody came nobody called. until almost 12 then i received call that they were in the room 2 rooms down.. but 2 guys were missing (why did i so didn't see this coming -_-) ... so all i did was improvise on the spot.. and did a solo.. although i really have no clue how does this relate to "Scarse" its like celtic/indian music.. thats all i can say.. don't know but they are very happy with my parts cos they don't have to tell me what to do.. i just blend in quite easily..
haha all of us Starved through Michael Corbidge's class. 12-5+... everyone so eager to go eat/drink liao.. haha.. then learnt some performing exercises.. haha should practice some of them.. help loosen myself up especially my shoulders.. they're like forever tense.. yes and i'm the special one in the whole class.. i play chinese instrument.. yay clap clap.. haha.. they should put some spotlight on the Opera Vocals/Vocal Lyrics also haha SABO!!!
tomorrow Aural with Belinda at 9am.. woo.. hope got proper class.. i'm quite you know interested to do well.. haa.. Friday is Yoga.. omg.. dunno whether i looking forward to it or what.. haha.. well i'm really looking forward to the Play.. and the 1500 word Essay and the 4 production reviews i gotta do.. and the daily log/diary thing i gotta write for this whole thing.. OMG.. its like soo cool.. i love Corbidge's class... so much more exciting than Darren Moores.. that one just made me depressive..
anyways yea.. thinking should i bring pipa down tomorrow to prac during that 3 hour break.. or just go out and chill and makan with frens.. haha
Posted by wJ at 9:12 PM
Sunday, August 3, 2008
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no comment.. feeling rather much ... down lately.. probably because of the chain of events since that day..
was on the bus earlier.. went through Geylang.. felt so.. in a way disturbed and unclean.. then a question came to me.. is a penal desire that strong to drive people to such extents? i just... nevermind... i can't comment much on this.. like they say 男人都不是好东西.. excluding myself and some others.. (=
plugged in to the iPod and guess i shouldn't have but i needed to cut myself away from my environment.. the worst part was i was tearing on the bus.. i cannot explain why but i just did.. ok i was thinking of someone.. and i have been since that day.. it just made me feel rather sad to know that 2 people who understood the pain they experienced before got together and the final result they created another pain for themselves.. i become filled with regret.. a strong sense of regret. made me remember everything that happened.. all the promises we made.. and all the things i should have done.. I should have went for the TJ recital.. i should have went to find that person.. i should have shown better support.. i should have considered the feelings then.. i should have cared a little bit more.. i shouldn't have said those things.. i shouldn't have left that silence.. i shouldn't have let that person feel that way because i said those things.. i should have apologized and tried to patch things together.. i shouldn't have been so petty over it.. i should have remembered my promise... i shouldn't have let my anger and rash behavior take over the situation.. now i regret everything that has happened.. and i can't change it.. maybe if i diligently attend the Annual Concert every May.. sooner or later i might see you again.. even if i have said all that.. i still have a fear to see you again. i don't want to feel that same feeling of pain again..
AFTER ALL THAT... i just made a simple reminder to myself.. i make my life and not whatever that makes up my life make me.. just a failure to understand why i feel like this.. your pain i've felt.. and yes... it is like poison..
siiigh make things top of that.. WHY AM I AFFECTED!!!.... nvm.. i guess this should be rather natural... so shall ignore that..
arghhh!!... so many things happening today.. irritation, regret, depression?, sad, affected, happy, quiet.. etc etc etc...
shall just constantly remind myself.. whatever it is.. this must end today and tomorrow shall be start fresh.. Tomorrow 10am H302...
anyway.. to take things lighter.. went to Paya Lebar after HsingHai.. met chunmei with xueqi.. and i bought a lot of McDonald deserts.. haha. McFlurry and Hot Fudge Sundae.. then while the girls went to the Ladies... i took a spin around THIS FASHION.. and cool.. i found some shirts i saw at Bugis Village that i wanted to buy but doubt it.. cos it was like $10-$15 each.. BUT i found today at THIS FASHION and its only $6-$8 with a 20% discount along with it.. totally WTF!!.. i bought the PUMA parody shirt.. TUNA.. hahaha.. $5.. saw COMA.. but well didn't want to look like Jeremy.. haha.. after all we were somehow coincidently wearing similar tones/colors of sets of cloths especially to GECO.. school is starting tomorrow.. wondering what to wear.. haven't bought my new pair of shoes yet.. gotta go back to West Mall to find em.. and rather insecure of time tomorrow.. since i have no timetable..
the most ironic part (=
those who are sad.. lets not be sad and cheer up.. tomorrow will be better
those who are irritated.. cool down and you'll see the world gets lighter..
those who are happy.. good for you... keep it up..
those who are emo.. don't consider slashing..
those who are depressed.. look at things from another angle.. it might feel easier..
those who are angry.. all things happen for a reason.. look at it in a better light it'll help..
those who are tired.. go sleep.. and i mean NOW..
those who are sick... Wish you get well soon.. positive energy kills viruses.. >.<
those who are 失恋.. don't think too much.. just keep moving.. you'll discover why
ok i'm now dead tired.. i need a good rest.. if you're reading this at this Unearthly hour it has been posted.. 12.17am.. GO TO SLEEP.. because i believe you're Tired..
sleep Zzz