Sunday, September 28, 2008

Here marks the end of my Term Break..

i think i miss holidays so much again.. even though i swear i remember complaining to EVERYONE that 10months holiday is a killer.. because i didn't know how to spend it efficiently, now that i do.. i feel sad not having that much time already.. haa.. always too late to regret.. looking forward till after Dec20 where i have my last 10 days of holiday... MY ONLY HOLIDAY for December.. so not cool rite? had a lot of thoughts again this holiday.. things i think i'll do in future.. or at least plan to.. i need to find myself a stable future.. and i think my current situation is sort of stable but is a retarded stable.. i don't know.. truth is i don't even know what i'll do in the future.. i can't really imagine myself doing anything in the future other than performing and shrugs* teaching?

anyway.. right.. all about holiday..

Monday onwards.. going by the day quite well i guess.. spending quality time with my laptop and pipa.. haha.. well i sorta do that everyday so hah...

Anyway yea.. the only interesting parts were going to British India seeing this really really really nice coat like shirt/coat whatever you call it, but i don't dare buy it partly cos its $100+ and i'm afraid it won't match with me... argh!!.. well ok la.. holidays spent quite ok.. was rather bored at first.. then i'll meet up xueqi once a while to eat or walk around...

We went to watch Mirrors after eating Suki Sushi Buffet... its not exactly scary but just gorey.. i was so scared... not of the movie but of entering.. haha.. cos its M18... but i still got through... EVEN THOUGH MY ID WAS CHECKED!!... haa..

School is starting tomorrow.. figured a lot of things... found back the composure i had..


RANDOM RANDOM TALK TALK BLA BLA BLA BLA BLA

hmm dunno what to say or how to say it in a way.. very indirect as usual... typical me..

lets put it like this..

sigh.. there used to be A... but it was like you know me being very stupid in a way... i don't know.. i didn't really feel much about it.. probably becos of my natural biasness.. then came B and C... well time went along... C is gone.. so its A and B now... its soo like i don't know.. distracting? confusing??? its like.. you can aways think of 1... but dream of the other.. -_-... ARGH!!!... i don't expect anything good coming from either la... i resent to fate liao.. like someone always says... "no fate.."

i had this awkwardly VERY VERY weird dream that nite.. i dreamt that someone i know suddenly went missing.. like wiped out from memory or existence... its like that person no longer exists... i got soo sad for some reason that i don't even know.. i freak out when i woke up.. i msged that person just to check.. thankfully got reply.. haa.. so weird rite..

really just rather irritating when people take advantage of your goodwill/naiveness.. i guess the general public will agree with me on this... i hate feeling like a post-it pad.. there to aid someone and then just torn and thrown into the bin.. true i'm not a easily sociable person if the relation between us is not close.. and rite ok thats my fault becos i'm not easy to understand because i'm very reserved.. i hold things back.. i keep quiet.. i choose to swallow things down and leave it.. and ok i can't deny.. i'm definitely not one person that can be very popular.. what am i good at? music and computer games? not rich, not cool, not very expressive... (hahaha my expression of "high" isn't very far from being normal with a faster pace of speech).. i dunno i DUNO!... like someone told me before... i always depend on people close enough to me to tune me... that makes me feel stupid at times when i think.. cos that just labels me as very dependant on people.. which makes me lack individualism.. and with that.. i sometimes tend to be very possesive.. which leads to jealousy..!!!.. wtheck.. ivan so complicated.. haa..

ohh my... Lee-Hom coming to singapore on NOVEMBER!!! i want to WATCH!... shit...

i think FRH coming on December rite? i dunno yet... but if they do. i wanna watch also. shiiiit.. haha.. >.<


Current Mood : "Cha-pa-lang" haa

aiyo tired already.. gd luck to all Promos people... its ending soon... some tomorrow some 2 weeks later haa.. jy jy.. hear from you all soon and catch up one day (=

BuhBye...

Currently Listening to : Mariah Carey - Bye Bye... (so dots right? hahaha.... not my fault.. its on a blog playing haaa...)

Posted by wJ at 11:59 PM