Sunday, September 14, 2008

Truth Unveiled?

well silence has its pros and cons...

feeling far too much bothered by matters that they are stored in little bottles with a cork stopper. apparently the cabinet is FULL.. so guess i should pour some moody liquid out today..

continue off from last post..

oh missed out.. ANNE is BACK!!. woo.. haha.. so nice.. bought us snacks... haha.. GREEN TEA MARSHMELLOW is like SOOO nice... Mint Chocolate also.. so is the Milk Chocolate..

Wednesday.. Wow.. i'm amazed the performance turned out quite well.. not very good but was still rather manageable.. in fact we were commended? haha. had Group Ensemble following which and we did R&B in a Gospel Christiany way... somehow our genres always very Christian like... followed gang to Clark Quay to accompany them till they go off to watch Love Labor's Lost.. and i intended to go NAC but oh well.. crossed office hours.. so headed to SAM to find xueqi and gang.. found my favourite drink Appletiser at DOME cafe... thats going to be my chill out zone.. haha.. and today is the mark of the day... i get to play Gigs.. thanks to my dear ol fren Xueqi.. hah Love U..

Thursday... . .. . . .nothing interesting and wish not to furthur talk about it.. the schedule is the same but the mood is completely different.. whatever~ went home.. totally sick and dead.. fell asleep at 9..

Friday.... ok la no point harping... nothing interesting.. got home and just played games... didn't had any mood to do my Journals that i haven't started.. at this point I am basically distracting myself from mood swings by playing Word Challenge.. waited for call since wednesday but it never came.. bye bye $60.. i wished you were here..

Saturday... SUPER SUPER SUPER SUPER SUPER SUPER NO MOOD AT ALL.. at this stage... i have entered massive bitchy.. but of cos i locked myself at home so that i don't kill anyone by my massive attitude. went to theory in the evening.. then headed home.. TIRED..

Today.. well..quite a day i suppose.. lesson was good.. or at least better.. (= accompany dear Xueqi today.. then do crazy things.. then went TPY ate Mos Burger then chill sat chat stress and etc etc etc and decided to go ATTEMPT to shop.. hah.. saw this person at Body Shop whom i didn't see earlier on our 1st visit.. and OMG that person is "gorgeous!!!" .. haha.. then me being so nice took 26 with her till Kallang.. haha


Moody Liquid:

Well Seriously... if you had such a lame reason for not wanting to talk/befriend me then fine so be it... i'm no longer someone who'll cry over it.. i maybe vulnerable but definitely NOT weak.. i mean well it probably goes to show how much anything matters that i've done.. seems like it was nothing to you.. so i was probably just stupid then.. i can't even find words for the stupidity i did.. but ok true enough i can't deny that that period i managed to pull through with help..

Another matter.. sigh.. i think maybe i tried pursuing company.. subconsciously am at least.. just came to realise i dunid to make myself stupid and be someone i'm not just to fit with the world.. true enough i don't deny.. i am a person of many lies and many masks.. knowing me is probably something difficult because theres just layers of lies that i cover myself with.. and you'll probably never realise i'm lying.. "Easy to get, difficult to Handle".. probably takes at least 1 year to clear past the lies to reach the stage of masks.. and probably 0.5 year to pass that to knowing who i am.. Individualism is a concept and a practice.. Ivan don't be weak.. or probably i should say WeiJie..

Seriously just (*&# i'm already picturing what the next 2 days will look like.. and really seriously.. i want to care? but i can't find myself caring anymore... once or twice i don't bother.. but EVERY TIME is something i will DEFINITELY NOT TOLERATE.. at the end of the day.. i'm switching to Arts Management and not Music.. i don't lose out.. and base on individual assesment.. i don't lose out neither... know this blardy well... i'm there to put a patch on all your loopholes and cracked areas... if u wan me to stand out of cos i can.... but if i don't play by falling sick on that day? i don't think we'll get a good assesment for that day.. or at least i believe so.. not that i'm being a boast but i find it rather true.. and everyone knows that.. i admit.. i am a lousy musician when it comes to making chord progressions... thats my disability.. i cannot figure that out...

argh whatever.. Ivan is just freaking bitchy these few days.. so if you don't feel comfortable then back off..


Bitching off..

Posted by wJ at 11:00 PM