Sunday, December 28, 2008

sick... disastrously

wow i think i can go do those chinese dramas.. spit blood and die.. sick sick sick!!!... useless doctors find nothing wrong with me..

anyway.. haha.. today went to this really small and old orchestra to play ruan lol... i amuse myself at times.. i could actually sight read quite .... smoothly.. haha.. took me 1 night to find the "qiao men" to lun... haha.. then found out i was the only person playing ruan there.. cos the other ruanner took leave O_o... thank god still got xq next to me.. can hear where on earth i am.. haa.. songs so blur... all so badly handwritten =P.. scary thing was.. conductor ask me play solo song for ruan.. i was like X_x.. i'm not a ruan player.. Lol!!..

went to eat some "dian xin" shop.. wasn't that bad.. pretty average.. haha i wished there was more to it.. then walked the whole MS being lame and random and complaining complaining the whole of Marina.. then ended up in Gelare to eat WAFFLE!!.. i love the waffle.. with the Chocolate Overload... haha personal favourite on my 1st visit.. lol..

man.. 超级星光大道第四季 rocks... 阿妹 host and that is totally kick ass.. haha.. 阿妹 is the goddess of chinese songs... haha.. a must watch... haha..

Posted by wJ at 12:40 AM

Sunday, December 21, 2008

random random

hey haven't been popping back ever since.. haha..

ok due to a fan request (LOL i'm being lame again)

i watched NCMC Ruan Open.. hmmm.. what can i say.. it was something i sort of enjoyed watching.. i heard the Premier of Arabia Capricio (if i'm correct) hmm.. its a nice song but i believe "chen wei jian" transposed it wrongly.. cos apparently when played on ruan.. it sounds totally WRONG.. but generally the "xuan lu" is nice.. and i heard the bell yet again for NCMC.. it was on Ester for Man Jiang Hong.. gosh.. ok i thought it was a bit sloow.. then i sorta lost focus already.. i was like omg.. cannot.. cannot..!! cos i just lived through guzheng earlier which BORED me to death.. LITERALLY.. not fascinating, not interesting.. so was falling asleep...

well watched prize winners.. haha.. ok no fascinating... i thought it would be wow.. 1st prize winners.. comon gimmi a show.. in the end it was totally WTH.. nvm.. no comment no comment... VOMIT*...

ahh quite a lot happened.. i'm a bit lost to what to feel. but i guess i am happy.. haa.. i wished for a lot of things.. and they seem to be coming true slowly.. i may have just gone through 1 of my stormy periods but hey in everystorm the rainbow follows suit.. so what should i want to keep looking at something so dull and benefitless for so long.. i can pursue somthing else...

i feel more free now that competition is over. its like wow... life came back to me.. or at least i can pursue life again... although i feel weird that now the sudden change that everything is so much more relaxed i'm a bit not too used to this feeling..

haha.. nothing much to say.. cos i've got them all written down in a book of memories..

"Nothing is forever yours, but the memories you treasure are forever yours to keep."

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Posted by wJ at 12:48 AM

Tuesday, December 9, 2008

Welcome Back?

its been sometime already.. things disappear things appear.. i would say life has been rather balanced.. i had my pit lows and sky highs.. of cos some senses won't just disappear as if a memory of seeing a certain thing along the street.. some senses can haunt one for years.. but in the end they are all still memories.. hopefully not memories of Nobody..

I walked a path i never dreamt in my entire life i would.. life has been harsh yet rewarding in different ways.. the results may not have been what was to be expected but the process of it was what was really rewarding.. things are just meant to be the way they were meant to be.. fate is cruel..

at least now things clear up.. i'm less stressed again.. gives me ample time to freely think what i want to do and to pay some attention to myself.. i've managed to drift back into the land of dreams.. where dreams are never reality but reality might be like dreams.. perhaps it doesn't apply always but maybe something to make one happier is better than none..

i am well and fine.. and i want to thank all those who were beside me and by my side on that day.. your well wishes and concern and care meant a lot to me.. thank you for all the encourages to keep me moving on.. perhaps this is truly my lowest point i've ever felt.. never have i, really been into such a state beyond my most miserable moments.. somethings are just not meant to be but i wish that somethings can be.. wishing in silence.. i'll never say them.. trust in time and maybe time will be the answer..

well haa.. guess the hardest of all hardest has its own vunerability.. thankfully not everybody saw that most disgraceful moment.. one with so much pride to hold back all his emotions had his walls crumbled by hearing the very voices of his friend's concerns..

ok well i went through competition and i lived through it i suppose.. the process was tiring la.. the day b4 it i couldn't control anything.. i couldn't start my song neither could i keep my focus.. my mind was wavering for the worst of the worst already.. i saw it coming.. and it did.. life seemed to suddenly stop at that moment.. everything i wanted to do just dashed across... but still nonetheless thanks to all who came down to support me.. pipa gang, Adrian(lecturer), seryang.. well haha.. thought lots of my classmates would be there.. but oh well.. at least looking at the brighter side of it.. i didn't have to face them..

oh well oh well... sadly MY LIFE moved on (= ..
or at least there are better things for me to keep aiming for than to wallow in self misery.. haha.. bought a nice book for diary.. think i'm going to have fun scribbling every treasured moment in it.. ha..

Right... back to life.. like they say life goes on.. (=

"when you say nothing at all"


Adios...

Posted by wJ at 10:22 PM

Wednesday, December 3, 2008

keep moving on anyway..

what an old song " Get on Up, when you're down. Baby, keep on moving anyway. I know its tough but its ok to keep on movin on anyway ". haha

ok i know i haven't been blogging since FOREVA... its already December... Competition is HERE.. whaoo.. SOLO CATEGORY HAS JUST BEGUN ITS SEASON a few minutes ago.. the DAY HAS STARTED.. i have a few more days.. -_- .. and well yea.. watched the ensemble competition.. omg the Bradell group "GaoHu" player was like omg... superb.. never heard better from youths..

coming to think of it.. oh shit my competition is the day after tomorrow.. nut nuts!!!

aiya can one la.. (arrogant ass)... shit i don't think can leh. (no confidence).... O_O (lame) ....

argh randomness.. ok i'm tired.. low fuel... LOW ON GASOLINE... i'm feeding on encouragement from my peers to keep going.. i like the fact that my friends all think i can do it.. but i hate the fact that i think i can't.. !!!!.. ok maybe i can.. i think.. argh soo.. wadeva..


i hate my hair.. it looks disgusting... i need to do something to make it nicer than disgusting.. i wan my coat T.T i love it... i waaan it.. i'll try get it later today.. (=... oops.. hahahahahahahhahha...

shiiiiit.. ok la... good luck premier song/s users.. and BEST OF LUCK to all my frens!!! lets do this thing.. !!! DO!!!...

omg la.. if i'm seen VERY FREE after friday.. go figure.. or if u see newspaper article going.. Boy Jumped singapore river.. on saturday.. go figure (=

OK TA TA.. BUSY!!!!! (freaking flying around like aeroplane)

Posted by wJ at 12:09 AM