Tuesday, December 9, 2008
Welcome Back?
its been sometime already.. things disappear things appear.. i would say life has been rather balanced.. i had my pit lows and sky highs.. of cos some senses won't just disappear as if a memory of seeing a certain thing along the street.. some senses can haunt one for years.. but in the end they are all still memories.. hopefully not memories of Nobody..
I walked a path i never dreamt in my entire life i would.. life has been harsh yet rewarding in different ways.. the results may not have been what was to be expected but the process of it was what was really rewarding.. things are just meant to be the way they were meant to be.. fate is cruel..
at least now things clear up.. i'm less stressed again.. gives me ample time to freely think what i want to do and to pay some attention to myself.. i've managed to drift back into the land of dreams.. where dreams are never reality but reality might be like dreams.. perhaps it doesn't apply always but maybe something to make one happier is better than none..
i am well and fine.. and i want to thank all those who were beside me and by my side on that day.. your well wishes and concern and care meant a lot to me.. thank you for all the encourages to keep me moving on.. perhaps this is truly my lowest point i've ever felt.. never have i, really been into such a state beyond my most miserable moments.. somethings are just not meant to be but i wish that somethings can be.. wishing in silence.. i'll never say them.. trust in time and maybe time will be the answer..
well haa.. guess the hardest of all hardest has its own vunerability.. thankfully not everybody saw that most disgraceful moment.. one with so much pride to hold back all his emotions had his walls crumbled by hearing the very voices of his friend's concerns..
ok well i went through competition and i lived through it i suppose.. the process was tiring la.. the day b4 it i couldn't control anything.. i couldn't start my song neither could i keep my focus.. my mind was wavering for the worst of the worst already.. i saw it coming.. and it did.. life seemed to suddenly stop at that moment.. everything i wanted to do just dashed across... but still nonetheless thanks to all who came down to support me.. pipa gang, Adrian(lecturer), seryang.. well haha.. thought lots of my classmates would be there.. but oh well.. at least looking at the brighter side of it.. i didn't have to face them..
oh well oh well... sadly MY LIFE moved on (= ..
or at least there are better things for me to keep aiming for than to wallow in self misery.. haha.. bought a nice book for diary.. think i'm going to have fun scribbling every treasured moment in it.. ha..
Right... back to life.. like they say life goes on.. (=
"when you say nothing at all"
Adios...
Posted by wJ at 10:22 PM