Thursday, July 9, 2009

nothing comes without expectations and I definitely have never met their expectations.. they want the glory the fame the reputation the money the identity.. yet i achieved none.. like all bank loan extentions.. if you fail to meet the requirements.. you lose everything.. i probably haven't burnt my fingers.. yet it seemed like i already did.. perhaps i do still have the chance if i would take it on my own..

mental independance i might have accomplished.. yet financial independance i seem so far from.. i start to think.. was the root of everything i wanted what i dreamt for or was it what it was expected from me.. i dunno and really i don't want to care anymore.. trying wasn't the problem.. it was accomplishing..

whatever.. i should be numb to this.. after all.. it has haunted me for years..